fluffy rambles: Liveness check

Liveness check

July 19, 2026 12:13 AM (a month ago)

Man, I am so tired of being tired.

On the plus side I’m finally working on music again. Hopefully I can keep up a more sustainable momentum this time around, because I really do want to finish Misfits sometime this year. But I also don’t want to do my usual multi-month crunch that leaves me even more drained when I’m done with an album.

I’ve also been working on the next version of the-protocol-formerly-called-Canimus. At present the tentative rebrand name is “Chorus” although I’m not totally sold on it (but my various collaborators like it). Anyway, for now folks can look at the WIP draft branch and maybe comment on it? I’ve gotten some really good feedback from some folks but more eyes would be better, I think.

I’ve also been doing voice training again, this time with a practitioner who knows what the hell she’s doing. It’s going okay.

I only really have energy enough to do a few hours' worth of activity on any given day, and last weekend I made the mistake of going overboard with the exercise, which wiped me out for a good chunk of this week. Post-exertional malaise has such a hair trigger. I miss being able to walk 5 miles a day without even thinking about it.

I also miss being able to play DDR/Stepmania, but it was too hard on my knees, and I was also starting to worry about how much my floor shakes during more intense stuff. Maybe I should try setting it up in the basement, if I can figure out a good place to put it.

On the plus side, my VRChat fanbase is slowly growing. I’ve had some pretty good experiences lately where people actually come to see me perform, and they actually want to talk to me about the music afterward! People also keep on requesting the Furality song, which I can’t accommodate during my sets because my backing track is fixed ahead of time, but maybe I’ll make a backing track for my next show. I dunno.

But anyway. I guess things are fairly okay, or at least holding steady for now. Wish I could figure out a fix for the fatigue though. It’s been such an impediment to all the things I would rather be doing.