T minus one week (job stuff)
I am full of anxiety!
So, theoretically today I should be getting my temporary housing address, finally, which means I'll finally be able to set up my mail forwarding and cancel my utilities and so on. I hope. These margins are already razor-thin.
I'm already working on paring down my daily web reading list. Got rid of a bunch of comics which I haven't really been reading so much as occasionally glancing at, removed one particular "community" site which has suddenly given me a little bit of grief which I don't want to get out of hand (even though all I did there most of the time was read a handful of peoples' weblogs, but suddenly I'm finding a huge resevoir of drama and stupidity getting ready to explode again based on three minor events which occurred 3, 4, and 6 years ago, respectively), and moved a few things down into the "occasional/suspended" pile and reduced some others in terms of frequency.
Tomorrow I'll be packing my luggage, pre-organizing my stuff for the movers, and disassembling my wire shelving and futon. I also need to figure out what to do with some perishable food. Not that I have much of it left, as I've been good about thinning my food supplies. It'd be a shame to throw out all this flour and sugar though. Not so much of a shame to throw out this half-eaten jar of pickles.
Feeling lots of anxiety about the job though. More usual "What if I can't perform well enough?" self-doubt. I also had a dream last night that I had to give up and move in with my parents again. I definitely don't want to repeat that experience.
Thursday I'll be getting up at 4AM to make a 7AM flight, and then will land in Seattle at 10AM (6 hours later). Then I'll be picking up my rental car, heading to my temporary housing, then meeting up with Spud, Mad dog, and Jim for lunch at the Virginia Inn.
I'll have two weeks to buy a new car (I'm leaning towards a Matrix), six weeks to find an apartment (the spaces above Trader Joe's look pretty nice, though so do a lot of other places in Capitol Hill), and all the time in the world to find happiness.
I'm feeling kinda scared and overwhelmed and hopeful all at the same time.
And in a week, I'll finally have things to do.
Guess I should get around to recording that remake of Alright Alright I've been putting off. If I could get a damn moment's quiet. Jeeze. Maybe I'll just wait until I'm in Seattle. (I'm bringing my guitar, my Oxygen8, and an iMic in my luggage.)
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Someday I'll just get around to setting up a proper RSS aggregator (probably very soon, when I buy a new Mac and thus upgrade to OSX 10.4 → Safari RSS), and then I can just watch the Cool Kids' diaries directly.
Do you have any friends there? Most of my friends like to watch football and play madded alot, but alot of my other firends also like to frequest the many clubs in the area seeking out the great indie rock that Seattle and Olympia are know for.
Let me know if you wanna hang out while you are there. Particularly if you like either of the two actions above. I know I playing in a madded touney with some firends in June, ans going to the Mountain Goats show in June as well. Also, some other friends (i am from the area) are developing a video game for fun and profit this summer if you have time/are interested.
adios.
I'm not too interested in game development (and I'm totally uninterested in sports), though as a spare-time thing it could be kind of fun. For my free time I'd much rather spend more time on music, though. I'm going to try to start a band with my cousin's husband, and also will probably be doing a lot of stuff with Octothorpe.
Anyway, interesting coincidence. Your IP address tells me that you're also moving there from NYC, so, heh, cool. [EDIT: Duh, you already said you were moving from Hell's Kitchen.]
I don't mind the circlejerkiness of HuSi; I see it as more of a chatty community, which is fun now and then. Unfortunately, there's a (very few) people there who still seem to think that their out-of-context view of events they weren't involved in on K5 are still worth dredging up.
There's been occasional snipes at me there in the past but none I felt were worth responding to, but then this recent nonsense with Farq has made things feel very hostile all of the sudden, even though it's only a couple of people who have made me feel that way. But the last thing I need right now is another APA situation.
I haven't walked away, but I'm not going to spend a lot of time there. Not that I was intending to be there a lot to begin with.
Also, audio clip for the curious.
Why would you need his permission to come back?
I was going to say something in defense of LJ, but then I glanced at my friends page. If you post cutting pics, that would be four entries in a row...
Thing is, I have done things at K5 I wasn't proud of. Most of them were during periods where I either wasn't on medication at all, or was switching meds. There are large periods of my life I'd like to either erase, or 'do over' with medication.
So, it's still Rusty's site, right? And if you ask me, a persons site is sort of, kind of, in a way, an extention of their home. You don't do anything on someone elses 'blog that you wouldn't want done on yours (unless you are uncivilized, or crazy - I'm sometimes the latter.) So, if I have behaved badly in Rusty's 'house', I wouldn't come back in with either being invited, or asking permission. Particularly since my accounts have always been nuked instantly by Peter "Zig Heil!" Whysall once it was known that it was me. This time, I wasn't nuked. Yet.