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Hi, y'all, I'm a disabled neurodiverse trans gal who likes making music and other things.

I've been having some, uh, fun financial shit happening as of late, and while I'm not in dire straits I'd prefer to be doing something with my time that doesn't feel like I'm wasting away and which also has, y'know, some sort of income stream.

So anyway here's my commissions page on Ko-Fi. Right now it's focused on music since that's the thing I'd be most comfortable doing on a commission basis.

Unfortunately Ko-Fi's commissions page thingy doesn't seem to have any way of embedding sample music (it's very much oriented towards visual arts) but you can get some examples of the music I've done over on my bandcamp. Here's some of what I think are highlights:

And here's some specific tracks to listen to:

• Battle Stations (action music for a game)
• It's Good Enough (maybe good for like a radio playing in the background?)
• Canonical (emotive classical music)
• President Katya (dance-pop anthem from a visual novel I was doing the soundtrack for)
• Reliable Elise (another character portrait song from the same game)
• Feed (a dance track from one of my conceptual albums)
• Wiener Dog on a Motorcycle (a children's song meant to teach about counting and cooperation)

I also did an hour-long music video about coffee grinders which might also give you an idea of the sorts of stuff I'm good at, idk

Also on the commissions page I make reference to my podcast which is basically like little sleep hypnosis things that try to make you feel like you're something else, like in one you're a cat and in another you're a pooltoy and there's one where you get TFed into a slimegirl at a party, and the other night on VRChat I accidentally extemporaneously hypnotized someone without meaning to and long story short now they enjoy getting their nose booped? and I didn't realize I had this sort of power but apparently I do??? anyway just some ideas

When I was a lot younger, I was trying to figure out my identity.

Growing up in the 80s and being a teenager in the 90s was an awful time to be trans, and even though I definitely had gender feels going back early in my childhood (like, recently I remembered thinking about it when I was 7, and really into The Last Unicorn by Peter S Beagle), the environment simply wasn't supportive back then. I got bullied for being a "sissy" and a "girl" a lot.

I was also very much into transformation-related fiction (uh, like The Last Unicorn) and along the way I decided that it would actually be easier to be an animal. This of course led directly to my later descent into furry trash.

man I really need to work on the podcast some more. It made me happy to work on. But I haven't had any inspiration for new episodes in a while.

If there are any therians out there with a facet of their identity they'd like to explore via hypnotic suggestion, please let me know.

Hi there! I'm a Seattle-adjacent furry weirdo who makes music, games, and bad decisions. Sometimes I make comics too.

Most of my stuff is on my own personal website and the best way to follow me is by pointing a feed reader there. You can also follow me on Mastodon if you prefer that mode of getting updates. I'll try to remember to crosspost my more interesting stuff here too, though!

I'm a big proponent of the Indieweb and I've written a bunch of software for it. I'd love to see Cohost become a part of it someday.

Other hobbies:

• VRChat
• Coffee
• Running Novembeat
• Having anxiety, ADHD, and chronic pain

It's nice to meet you!

random thought but playing vrchat everyone likes to be really small and so nobody ends up being small bc everyone is small and then u join with a 1.6m avatar and suddenly you're the tallest in the room by far

u just gotta keep getting smaller if u wanna be small compared to others and it's a never ending cycle

funnily enough, I prefer just being a specific size: about 1m tall. I don't mind if everyone else in the room is that size, either, because it means there's this comfort in being around others who Get It.

I can't reach the displays for the cool things in the museum and I have to jump up and down to see it and somehow this feels right

My VRChat avatar is the same height as me RL, because like hell am I going to let my hard-won feelings of actually being a perfect height for a girl be undermined by a new set of bullshit societal expectations.

(that said I do enjoy being smol sometimes, but usually only by switching avatars.)