Today was my third ketamine infusion. It was intensely cozy.
Commonalities with previous infusions:
- Felt like I was a tiny speck and that all of spacetime was collapsing down into this liminal space that I was part of
- I do have a physical body but it’s indistinct from everything around it
- Lots of trees
- Surrounded by fractals
- Everything is impermanent and any fears about me dying were quickly dispelled by me feeling like the universe is fine and all grief is transitory
- Everything is so out of order and I wish I could bring a video recorder inside with me so that I can review it later and share it with others