July 25, 2014
October 15, 2012
I'm not sure how things got so far out of control. There are so many things I could and should have done differently, but I'm terrible at knowing what the right thing to do is in any given situation. I'm not good at handling conflict, and so I try to avoid it, and sometimes my way of avoiding it causes more problems than what I think it's going to solve at the time.
I do not think that we are suitable for one another, and I apologize for hiding away my true feelings for far too long and causing such a catastrophe when the mismatch finally became an issue.
I apologize for thinking that avoiding the issues would make them solve themselves.
I apologize for the way I treated you, and especially for not being up-front about why I was having trouble with hosting you after all. I did sincerely believe that I could make it work out despite my feelings, and it was only at the last moment that the rickety wall holding back all the feelings came crashing down. I apologize for deluding myself into thinking that things could work out until it was too late.
I'm sorry for giving you incorrect impressions, and allowing those incorrect impressions to run unchecked, and deciding it was easier to just let you run with it instead of making sure we were on the same page all along. I'm sorry for following in the footsteps of others who were doing or had done the same damn thing, thinking that made it justified somehow.
I'm sorry for hurting you, and anyone else I hurt along the way. I'm not perfect, but I try to learn from my mistakes, and this was definitely a big one to learn from.
I'm sorry for still being such a coward that I'm only going to post this here and am doing everything I can to never come across you at random, which is the reason I LJ/blog-unfriended and Twitter/MUCK-blocked you to begin with. And I'm sorry for not explaining that until now.
(But for what it's worth, I never blocked you from commenting on my blog or sending me email.)
October 13, 2011
November 29, 2004
Also, make sure you're not running a bunch of bogus httpds, and that you don't have things like "tmp.php" and "forumload.php" in your forum directory. If you do, there's a bunch of other fun crap to get rid of, like a hidden directory called .cache, and you'll probably also have a bunch of xfs processes running as well.
Dear Warez puppies: haven't you guys ever heard of bittorrent? Jeeze.
June 8, 2003
phpBB needs a better upgrade mechanism. One which doesn't require the admin to take a crash-course in SQL to learn how to fix the horribly-broken tables.
(If you already had an account, it should still work just fine, though you may need to clear your cookies to get in. Also, all avatar images got deleted.)
Update: Except for that little problem of not being able to post anything. God damnit.
FUCK SHIT ASS TITS CUNT MOTHERFUCKER COCK MEKROB Golly, something still seems to be amiss. Anyone know how to get postgres to list and possibly drop all tables matching a certain pattern? I think a total from-scratch reinstall is in order. (Don't worry, I backed up all the comments first.)
Update: Fuck it. Just fucking fuck it. All prior comments are lost, and there's nothing I can do about it, thanks to phpBB's fragile database schema and totally opaque configuration, relying on SQL to configure things which really shouldn't be configured in SQL.
I think I'll try Ikonboard. Tomorrow.
June 4, 2003
When: Saturday, June 14, 5:30-ish
Where: Email for address, map and directions (if you'd actually be able to get to Las Cruces on that day and are actually interested in coming)