Rambles that are fluffy, by fluffy
My big fibromyalgia flare seems to have finally subsided, so I’m back to working on music, yay.
Right now I’m working on recording “Sunny Again” for Transitions. The Transitions version has ended up being somewhat more complicated than I was expecting, so this will take a while to get finished. But I really like the arrangement that I have, and I hope that I can pull it off.
I’ve been having another major pain flareup, or rather the pain flareup that started a few weeks ago has continued to get worse, and it’s super difficult for me to do anything right now. Typing hurts, my brain is in constant fog, and there’s no freaking way I can work on music or art right now.
I’m super frustrated by this, of course, especially feeling like I’m so close to being done with Transitions as well as my new music website, but I gotta take care of myself so that there’s still a me to do the things I want to do with.
I ended up handing off one of my video editing projects to someone else so that at least takes some pressure off, and I’m just giving myself permission to nap, a lot, which my body has been craving.
Pretty much I only have the spoons for basic self-care right now, and that’s gonna have to be enough for a while. I’m also pretty much stuck at home because I don’t feel comfortable driving (or leaving the house, really) and even if the stuff I wanted to do were accessible by transit, I definitely don’t have the spoons to manage transit right now.
Also today I realized it’s been a year and a half since I started my disability claim, and it just keeps on getting blocked by bureaucratic nonsense.
John Oliver’s overview of the situation only scratches the surface of what I’ve been having to deal with.
Wednesday night I had a massive pain flareup towards the end of choir practice, due to some stressy situations that were developing all at once on top of my continued lack of sleep due to working on Transitions. This had me basically incapable of doing anything for several days, and I spent the next few days mostly just lying on the couch and smoking weed.
Yesterday as I was coming out of that haze I learned from my next-door neighbor Joe that my back-yard neighbor Rick died, also on Wednesday night.
I’m having a bad pain flareup and as much as I’d like to push through it and do the concert anyway, from experience I know that’ll just make things worse and I’m trying to get better at self-care and showing myself the same understanding I show others.
So, tentatively I’m planning on my next VR concert being on September 29, at 9 PM Pacific time, hosted on my VRChat group. And of course it’ll be streamed over on my Owncast. Here’s a Discord event link.
The great thing about performing virtually is that I don’t have to worry about venue booking. I can make my own rules for this and I don’t have to feel bad about the reality of my health.
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My brain is constantly exploding with things that I want to get done but my body keeps telling me “no.”
Hello! It has been a hot minute! I should probably post things here!
Does it count as navel-gazing when my fursona canonically doesn’t have a navel?
Wellp it’s another day that I feel like talking about.
Time for another tedious life and project update-ramble!
Just farting my words into the ether, as usual.
