I saw the rheumatologist today. The whole time he pretty much just tried to imply that my trans HRT was to blame, either by somehow causing pain directly (citing “definitive research”) or by being responsible for my history of DVT. He never asked questions, he only assumed, and he had absolutely no understanding of how important HRT is, especially for a post-op trans person, nor did he want to understand.
Why do doctors act as if trans HRT is just something done for funsies or that it isn’t itself medically necessary? I was miserable when I was testosterone-dominant. I’m not going to fucking stop taking estrogen, and if I did, then, what, I’m supposed to start injecting T? I’d sooner die.
He said that whatever I have probably isn’t arthritis, but didn’t want to speculate anything about the specific physical joint problems. As usual everything was just chalked up to “fibromyalgia.” He did order one simple genetic test but he said he’d expect it to come back negative.
The only recommendation he could give me was to start swimming at a heated therapy pool, and he mentioned one that isn’t too far from my house. He said with a prescription I might be able to get a discounted rate.
I am not a fan of swimming.
And, of course, no discussion took place whatsoever regarding my vertigo or my fatigue. The rheumatologist did at least recognize that I can’t “just exercise” which is why he recommended the swimming, as being a low-impact thing that I could use to somehow work up to higher-intensity things. But he still made it sound like this was a step towards running marathons, or something, when I was perfectly capable of doing pretty intense exercise before, but that tapered off over the last few years.
But of course he never even gave me a chance to talk about that.
What I need is someone who gives a shit and wants to order x-rays and MRIs and so on for my hands and knees and wrists, to try to see what’s actually going on physically.
The fucking medical system is broken and I’m at my wits' end here. Nobody can claim I’m not trying to work. We’ll see if social security decides I’m not trying hard enough, or something.
Tomorrow I have a shitload of dental work to get done. Two cavities and a crown. I am not looking forward to it.
I also have a phonescreen with a company on Wednesday that I’d have loved to work for a decade ago but there’s no way I can actually keep up with their demands now. I’m just going through it because it was so hard to get this interview in the first place. I forget when I actually applied to this job. Surely it wasn’t recently.
I’m so tired of being in pain, I’m so tired of having no answers for what’s causing it, I’m so tired of the lack of any medical professionals even giving a shit, I’m so tired of not being able to do anything that I want to do.
I wonder if my life is even worth living right now. I’m just going through the motions, and the motions fucking hurt.
I feel like I’m just taking up resources and not even getting any benefit from it. The things I want to make just feel so far away and impossible, and I’m sure not enjoying what I’m doing now.
Just. Fuck everything.
#pain #medicine #doctors ]]>My knees are still crap, and getting worse by the day. My vertigo is still pretty bad too, although I’ve been able to drive to the grocery store and to choir at least.
I think I’ve figured out that the GERD was being caused by drinking diet soda, which I’ve been having rather a lot of lately. I’d gone without my usual knockoff Diet Dr. Pepper for a few days and my stomach was feeling a lot better, then I drank some last night and, huh, the GERD came right back. I don’t know whether it’s the ace K, the sucralose, or the other flavors in the knockoff Diet Dr. Pepper, but whatever it is, I think it’d be wise to just like. Not drink more of this.
I also forgot to go to my ADHD support group this week. Oops. Oh well.
Today I did my taxes and found that I’d made a pretty decent amount of income even just on investments. Not enough to live off of on its own, but combined with disability payments I’d be in really good shape. And I’ve made peace with how I’m likely to never have a full-time job ever again, and That’s Okay.
So of course it’s pretty annoying how yesterday, a potential employer I’d applied to a year ago finally got back to me and wants to move forward with an interview. This employer is one who I’d have done anything to work at a few years ago, too. But in recent years they’ve gotten pretty notorious as actually being a pretty bad place to work.
I still gave their recruiter some times for a potential talk next week because even though I don’t want to work full-time and definitely don’t want to work as a programmer anymore (which seems to be what they’re interested in me doing) it’s possible that something else might come of it. It’d still be great to do contract work for them, especially on the sound design or music composition side of things. This company at least has a reputation for not prescribing specific roles for people and wants people with broad skills and interests.
But most likely nothing will come of this and that’s okay, and at most this will probably just confirm what I already know regarding needing to be on disability.
I am, incidentally, still in considerable pain all the time.
Also, I have a large carryover credit from my solar panels, which can only be deferred for one year. I think that if I get on disability this year that’ll give me enough income (with back pay) to end up consuming the carryover credit.
I’ve submitted three tracks to the 1000th Song Fight!, and am trying to coalesce lyrics and musical ideas for one from my actual current music presence. But if I don’t manage to do that, I’m okay with it.
I have gotten surprisingly little feedback on Instrumental, having only gotten one person saying anything at all and the negative points were things that weren’t actionable and would have required, like, making a totally different album. I’ve been tweaking the final track ordering a bit and I think I’m as happy with it as I’m ever going to be. But I’ll hold to the April 1 release date anyway.
Also! STANCE is having a talent show very soon. I’ll be performing a couple of songs at it, and I hope to see some of you there!
We’re short on video editors and so I reminded my team lead that I have video editing skills and some availability for using it. Hopefully this means I’ll have a more active role in producing content.
Also I might be participating in an upcoming panel on Trans Day of Visibility (March 31) about transition experiences.
I’ve made a bunch more tweaks to my critter avatar and should probably do another release.
Also my pottery is coming along slowly. The glazed calibration pots came back and they turned out really good. Now I have a few more molds made for various coffee cups and hopefully I’ll be able to get some of those fired soon.
#life #chronic pain #health #GERD ]]>So far I’ve submitted three tracks, all from unused older alter-egos of mine, and I’m also thinking of a couple more songs. But the more the merrier! Especially if you’ve ever participated in Song Fight! in the past, or have thought about it but never got around to doing it.
The title count is a little wonky because there's a few extra/special titles, but there's also a few which were lost to the sands of time during the tumultuous early years, as well as titles which were part of early live shows but never made it to the website. I suspect these more or less cancel out. ↩
Yesterday I finished hanging up the acoustic panels! Everything feels super cozy.
That last shot was taken for my album cover art, and for it I installed a ceiling camera mount:
That might be a nicer way of mounting a video camera if I start streaming from the studio again.
The album is now available for preorder, from both bandcamp and itch. I’m still welcoming beta feedback, though! The itch version has the full preview, for those so inclined.
Also I’d experimented with a few different album cover art ideas. It’s still sort of a work in progress, but here’s some of the things I tried:
My next-door neighbor felt it necessary to interrogate me about my cane since he’s started to notice me using it more. Then of course he was like, “Well, bodies get worse as they get older.”
The vertigo has eased up somewhat. I was chatting about it with the person who runs the ADHD support group and he said that antihistamines have helped him whenever that’s happened to him, so I tried taking some Benadryl last night, and that helped a bit, so today I got some Zyrtec, and that helped even more.
I’m still feeling a little wobbly (especially when driving) but I was at least able to drive to choir practice tonight. I was anxious as all get-out though.
Also, I’m about 10 days into a 14-day course of omeprazole, and while it was helping my GERD a little bit, now it’s back in full force, so, ugh, I think I need to see a gastroenterologist about this.
#studio #music #health #vertigo ]]>My vertigo has definitely been getting worse over the past few days. It matches BPPV pretty well, in that it’s mostly triggered by changes in head position, but I’ve tried all of the various BPPV self-treatment exercises (particularly the Epley maneuver and the Half Somersault), and while they definitely trigger even more intense vertigo while I’m doing them (as they should), the vertigo doesn’t resolve.
Alarmingly, I’ve also been having more frequent and severe bouts of tinnitus as of late, which makes me worry that I’m actually developing MĂ©nière’s disease, which doesn’t have a great prognosis.
Today while I was finishing up my acoustic panels and hanging them in the basement I had a severe vertigo attack — the worst I’d ever had — and I chalked it up to the outgas fumes from the spray adhesive I used. My basement VOC alarm was also going off from the fumes, so of course I left the basement and went to cleaner, fresh air. But it’s been a few hours since I did that and I’m still feeling dizzy. It subsides when I keep my head still but as soon as any movement happens, bam, the room is spinning.
I’m sure the glue fumes didn’t help at all but it feels like they really just triggered something that was already about to happen.
I was going to go grocery shopping today but now that seems to be off the table.
My knees are absolute garbage right now. My hips, too. And my toes. And my wrists. And shoulders. And sometimes my fingers. And elbows.
Basically, everything sucks.
I’ve got an appointment with a rheumatologist in two weeks. The last doctor I saw had ordered some labwork but the only “interesting” thing that came back was an elevated C-reactive protein, which is one sign of rheumatoid arthritis, but none of the other standard markers came back. But those tests are just indicators and never completely rule things out, despite the defeatist/cavalier attitude expressed by the doctor.
Like, you know how sometimes you’ll be walking for a little bit and then your kneecaps just go out of alignment and then need to be cracked back into place?
No?
Well, they do for me.
I fucking hate healthcare providers. They see “chronic pain” and immediately say “mindfulness.” It’s the new “diet and exercise.”
There are clear, physical symptoms going on, things that are underlying to my pain. All the fucking mindfulness in the world (and pain relief) doesn’t help if there’s unaddressed underlying conditions that are causing the pain in the first place.
They look at my weight and assume that I’m eating too much and am eating junk food. My typical meal these days is a salad with:
Or for dinner I’ll have fish, or soup.
But they never fucking believe me, and direct me to “eat less fast food.” They don’t want to believe that someone could be overweight for reasons other than diet.
It’s like they’re guessing which video games I play based on the color of my hair.
Also I’d love to be exercising more! But it fucking hurts to do so. How can I exercise if after five minutes of basic movements my knee gives out under me? And a similar thing happens to my shoulders after a couple of minutes of lifting 5-pound dumbbells.
My severe acid reflux also came back, about a week ago, in the form of, oh, I just bent over to pick something up and suddenly my throat was full of stomach acid! And every morning I’d been waking up with bad stomach acid problems as well. It’s the worst that the GERD has ever been.
When I brought this up with the doctor, of course the answer was “diet and exercise.”
I’ve been taking a course of OTC omeprazole again since in the past that’s usually helped things to clear up, and it’s helped somewhat, but it hasn’t solved all the issues. It’s just tolerable right now.
So, my usual GP is on a leave of absence due to a family emergency. She doesn’t have any appointments available until May.
I needed to see a GP in order to get a referral to a rheumatologist, and Virginia fucking Mason at least agreed to give me an appointment with someone other than my designed GP in order to do so. This other doctor was grumpy about needing to see me and the appointment was about 10 minutes of her grilling me about my entire medication list (especially with some severe misconceptions about my HRT), 5 minutes convincing her I needed referral to a rheumatologist and the supporting labwork, and then 10 minutes of her lecturing me about diet regarding GERD.
I didn’t get any time to ask about vertigo; when I tried raising it she just said that the appointment was over and walked out of the room.
The physician’s assistant who came back afterwards said that she’d schedule me for a followup to talk about the vertigo. And then this followup got canceled because I “need to see my assigned doctor about it,” and that if it’s something urgent I should go to urgent care.
You know the saying, an ounce of prevention is better than a ton of cure. But the prevention is not in stock, these days. And urgent care isn’t going to want to see me for things that aren’t ongoing “minor inconveniences” like vertigo, even though it’s preventing me from, y'know, living my life.
I fucking hate the medical industry right now.
So anyway I’m not particularly thrilled with how things are going at the moment.
#health #vertigo #chronic pain #medicine ]]>I have a pretty good process for something that’s easy and cheap to build. And it doesn’t hurt the sound, at least.
For each panel I’m using:
There are three mounting styles I’ve worked out, hung vertically, hung horizontally, and “shelved” horizontally:
For the vertical and horizontal ones, they are hung like a picture; for the “shelf” ones, they have a sheet of scrap plywood attached to them which can rest on the crawlspace shelf.
The construction steps are basically:
For ones which might be hung vertically, drill the holes and install the eye hooks into the furring strips (this is much more difficult to do later)
I like to use my hole centering jig but this is admittedly extreme overkill.
Place the hardboard down, porous backing-side up, and glue one of the furring strips down to the edge, clamping it in place.
Flip it over, and use short (½"–1") wood screws to fully clamp the hardboard to the furring strip (or I guess you could just wait a few hours for the glue to set but I don’t have enough clamps or patience to wait that long).
Repeat with the other furring strip on the other side.
For a panel which will be kept in a “shelf” configuration, this is a good time to attach the plywood to the top edge’s furring strip:
For ones that will be hung horizontally, now is a good time to add the eye hooks to the top edge.
Draw your layout lines for placing the tiles on the smooth front of the hardboard
Spray the hardboard with the spray adhesive
For each tile, spray its back with the adhesive, wait 15-30 seconds for it to become tacky, and carefully place it on the hardboard. I like to go center-out and top-down from whatever edge is going to be the top of the panel.
Anyway, after all this, the panels can be hung up in the same way that one would hang a picture.
I have enough materials to build 8 2'x4' panels in all, and currently have 5 of them built. Four of them are configured vertically and one is a hanging shelf.
Right now I plan on making three more with the ridgey foam, two of which will hang horizontally behind the drum kit (replacing the janky ancient plaid ones that I made around 18 years ago out of a cheap blanket and an eggshell-foam mattress topper), and one more that will stand vertically behind the kit. All of those will also get eye hooks that will allow them to hang vertically just in case, of course.
After that I’ll still have some acoustic foam tiles left over (28, I think?) and I have an idea for building a little bass trap end table thing that should take up 16 of those. And then I guess the remaining 12 can become three 2'x2' panels for my office.
I’m not sure what I’ll do with the old plaid panels. Those ones were, at best, just decorative, anyway.
#music #studio #acoustics #DIY ]]>My plans for tomorrow are to go to Home Depot and buy more stuff (wood glue and contact cement and short wood screws) so I can build the other three acoustic panels (that I have foam for, anyway), some fire pit gravel, and maybe some round fire pit surround bricks.
Also I ended up ordering more acoustic foam because I have some more places that I’d like to place panels and also I have enough material to build a few more panels anyway, and maybe I’ll make some smaller panels for my office although I’m not sure where they’d go since those walls are full of art. But they could always go on the wall behind the speakers.
I feel like I’m finally justified in really improving my music-making space right now.
A friend also gifted me one of his unused MIDI controller keyboards, which will probably live in my office if it’s lightweight enough, or otherwise it’ll replace the MPK47 and I’ll just finally get around to repairing the Keystation that I used to use in the office and has been sitting in parts on my dining room table for a year or so. The new-to-me keyboard will be arriving tomorrow (originally I was going to pick it up from him in Duvall but, y'know).
#music #studio #pottery #house #projects ]]>So, that lit a fire under my ass and I’ve been working hard for the last few days on finishing up the songs that needed finishing, and pulling in a bunch more music that’s suitable for inclusion too.
Anyway, I’m looking for a few test listeners to give it a once-over to get feedback.
I think the actual song selections are pretty much final, and there’s 19 tracks totalling around 51 minutes so that’s a pretty good album length!
Anyway, if you’re interested in being a test listener, please go over yonder and fill out the request form (or listen to the music).
I’m hoping to have this released pretty soon, so the sooner I can get feedback, the better.
#music ]]>My mold positives are 60mm across, and the bisqueware measures just under 54mm after firing, which tells me exactly what I need to know going forward. Basically anything I model needs to be 1.11x the intended final size. Easy enough to remember.
I’ll be glazing these, of course, although I’m not quite sure what to use them for. I’d only intended them for calibrating my shrink factor and they’re not really a useful size for anything. Maybe they’ll become the world’s worst cortado cups.
#pottery ]]>Yesterday I had a doctor appointment to try to figure stuff out, and while the appointment itself was pretty unproductive due to the usual crap with modern healthcare practices, the doctor did at least run a lot of labwork for me, including checking autoimmune and inflammation factors and the most common connective tissue disorder markers. It all came back negative.
She did at least refer me to a rheumatologist, but I suspect the rheumatologist is just going to look at the labwork and say there’s nothing they can do for me. Most likely the answer is going to be the usual “diet and exercise,” when my diet is already pretty decent and I have difficulty doing exercise because of the very problems I’m complaning about.
The only thing that was even slightly out of the ordinary on the bloodwork was a borderline c-reactive protein, which indicates either systemic inflammation or coronary artery disease, and given that I’m a bit overweight I can guess which of the two the doctors are going to assume it is (especially without any other markers indicating underlying causes for inflammatory disease).
There’s got to be something causing all this but the state of the medical industry means that it’s unlikely that anyone I talk to in the medical field is going to come up with ideas on their own, they’re just going to tell me “diet and exercise” and to do BPPV exercises. During the Epley maneuver the vertigo does get way worse, but completing the maneuver doesn’t resolve it.
And of course none of this even comes close to addressing my joints not moving the way they’re supposed to. I love walking but I sure don’t like the feeling of my knee bending backwards when I do so. Nowadays I need knee braces and a cane whenever I go out, if I want to have any chance of making it home without being in agony. And never mind playing DDR.
It’s just, gosh. I wish someone out there also has these problems but also knows what the cause is so that I can find some hope of understanding what I can do to make things better. There is so much more I’d rather be doing than what I’m currently capable of.
#chronic pain #health #frustrations ]]>Then I had a massage appointment out in Tukwila (across the street from the hotel I was staying at during the original bathroom remodel from hell, coincidentally enough). I felt the start of a panic attack when I was close to the end of the drive, but made it there fine.
The massage therapist’s office was upstairs, in a building with no elevator, and his office was locked and the instructions said to wait out in the hallway if that’s the case. My knees were acting up much more than usual today, so of course I got to sit out in the hallway while I heard the massage therapist just chatting with his previous client for 20 minutes about fishing. And then when they finally decided to end the yammering and he saw that I was out there he said I should have just knocked on the door to be let in. Oy.
Anyway, the massage itself was fine, but not worth the half-hour drive for. I was super tense and I definitely needed this. I need to find a massage therapist closer to home, though. There’s several to choose from in White Center, but they’re all “spa treatment” type places rather than deep-tissue/actual-therapy spots.
I also finally got in touch with a nearby rheumatologist. They said that they wouldn’t see me without a referral from my GP, and didn’t care about my prior history of needing a rheumatologist. So I contacted my GP to ask for a referral, and got a response saying that they couldn’t give a referral without me coming in for an appointment so that they could be sure that I really need it. So I looked at booking an appointment, and the next one isn’t until fucking May. So I asked if there’s an alternate provider I could see.
No response, of course. But hopefully I’ll hear back on Monday.
Oh, and there’s definitely a clacking noise from the reduction gear on my car, so I’ve got to take that into the mechanic to get that evaluated and fixed. And this is why I bought the extended warranty. But also the original factory warranty should still apply for this issue.
#massage #panic #anxiety #health ]]>I managed to make my way to Mercer Island and stopped at a Starbucks to collect myself, and then was able to get back across the bridge to make my way to Rainier Ave to drive home via surface streets, and had a good cry when I got home.
This is so frustrating and infuriating. I thought I’d gotten past this stuff. I thought I had the coping skills to deal with things. I thought I’d be able to actually go out and do things. But now I’m back to where I was a year ago, which in turn feels like I did when these panic attacks first started over a decade ago.
Every time this happens my world ends up shrinking just a little more.
Whenever I talk about this stuff people always assume that I just need to be reassured that crossing bridges is pretty safe, but bridges aren’t an issue for me. My big triggers when driving are curvy freeways and freeway tunnels. Especially when it’s raining. Especially when there’s big trucks around. Especially when I’m feeling dizzy for whatever reason. And this was all those things all at once.
I’ve been having a lot of vertigo lately. Usually not when driving, but when living my life. Taking a walk. Taking a shower. And it’s so frustrating. I’m sure it’s related to all the other crap going on with my body but whenever I’ve tried getting a doctor to take me seriously about stuff they just 🤷‍♀️ and have no further ideas.
I hate how much pain I’m in and how tired I am and how little I’m capable of doing these days, and I’m just so frustrated at what’s been taken away from me.
Everything just keeps going downhill.
#panic #anxiety #driving #health #disability ]]>I am looking for some combination of the following:
I am NOT looking for the following:
Here’s the things I’ve tried and have bounced off of:
Trello
An okay kanban board but it’s not great for subtask management, and also I don’t want to be tied to Atlassian.
Hack and Plan
Good for group planning with a lot of complex dependencies but way overkill for what I’m trying to do.
GitHub Projects
The to-do view is nice but this is very much oriented around managing open issues on specific GitHub repositories, and doesn’t do a good job of organizing subtasks.
Gitea projects
A partial clone of GitHub Projects and everything that implies. Very much tied to software projects. Also as far as I can tell it only has a kanban view.
iCloud Reminders
Pretty good for nested task management but the UI is very fiddly and it doesn’t make for easy reorganizing stuff, and its tagging system is a bit meh. Also, no public view.
Keeping a text or Markdown file somewhere that people can see it (such as right here on this blog)
I mean this isn’t the worst idea, but it’s hard to maintain discipline on that.
I know a lot of folks who are doing commissions and have various organizational systems, but it seems like most folks I know are just using Trello. Does anyone have any other suggestions?
#organization #commissions #requests ]]>I’m in so much pain right now. Fuckin' sucks. There’s the usual wrist and hand shit, but also my knees and feet are especially bad lately. I also have lost a lot of grip strength in my hands and am having trouble doing stuff that I used to have little trouble with.
I really should find another rheumatologist because I suspect I’m developing rheumatoid arthritis on top of everything else.
I have finally done two successful slipcasts of my calibration pot, and I’ll be getting them fired in a couple weeks. Then I’ll be able to start the real fun of designing actual pottery to sell.
Somehow a fly has gotten in between the backlight and screen of my TV. Mostly it just flits around near the edges of the screen. Hopefully it’s just attracted by the backlight (which I have set always-on because the local dimming on my TV is pretty crappy) and it loses interest and goes elsewhere next time I turn it off.
I’ve been doing my usual making a lot of music for a game jam thing and I’ve ended up overcommitting to things. Oops.
For as much as I talk about getting extrinsic motivation, right now I’m finding that feeling obligated to do things for others makes me feel ashamed for not doing stuff quickly enough, rather than motivated to. But I think this might also be beacuse of the pain shit.
I’m still very happy with the Niro. It’s a much nicer drive than any other car I’ve had and I feel a lot safer driving it.
Wednesday afternoon I’m driving out to Duvall to pick up a MIDI keyboard from a friend, which will be my first long-ish drive (about an hour each way). That’ll be my first real test of driving this thing for a nontrivial amount, as well as mitigating my anxiety (which I still experience while driving to an extent).
When driving at very slow speeds I do sometimes hear a distinctive click-click-click which is indicative of the hub bearing possibly being damaged, but that’s why I got the extended warranty on the car (since paying $2000 up-front is better than paying $6000 when things go wrong). Supposedly it’s not an urgent issue and just results in an annoying sound, anyway, so I’m not too worried about it.
Oh, also, I bought a wireless CarPlay adapter, which is surprisingly nice. Basically it means that I can always access CarPlay without having to physically plug my phone in (and if I do need to charge it I can just put it on the Qi charging pad or use the charger in the center storage console), and I’m finding that the music starts up way more reliably and with better quality than over plain BlueTooth anyway. It was $50 well spent.
I’m enjoying my Tundra trackers. It adds a lot of immersion to VR.
The Bigscreen Beyond is also an amazing headset with a couple of mild annoyances (but I’m way happier with it than the Pimax).
I want to make more textures for my critter.
I also need to tweak the AudioLink.
I want to make more avatars.
I also applied to a vendor booth at Furality this year, primarily as a musician with other stuff. Hopefully that leads to something.
I’m working with a disability attorney for my appeal and (eventual) hearing. She’s optimistic that I’ll get on disability eventually. I’m not in desperate need for this to move forward (my investments are still somehow giving me more income than I’m spending right now!) but it’ll at least be nice to have it taken care of.
I hate being disabled and would much rather be Doing Things (clearly I don’t have any lack of things I want to be doing!) but I definitely do not have it in me to be employed anymore.
Fiona’s been a real sourpuss lately. Tyler’s been a cuddlebug.
My bathroom still hasn’t been fixed. The original contractor decided he couldn’t schedule me after all so he said I should find someone else and he’ll reimburse me for the costs. So I reached out to the contractor who did my kitchen, who gave me a reasonable estimate and said he’d get me scheduled. That’s still taking a while. I need to ping him again.
This has been going on since December. Ugh.
I think I need to take a trip somewhere. Not really a “vacation” per se but like, I’m looking for spa resorts to get a nice rest away from home at, and get pampered for a bit. I definitely need a pampering.
I also could use some help getting my house cleaned up. There’s a lot of clutter that’s really bringing my mood down, and it feels so intractable right now.
Most of all I hate this feeling of isolation. Aside from weekly choir and VR and ADHD group I basically don’t see anyone, and both choir and VR feel kind of hollow a lot of the time.
There’s a vicious cycle happening. A few vicious cycles, really.
I want to feel useful and needed and cared about and I’m not getting any of that right now.
Something big needs to change.
#music #chronic pain #technology #car #disability #VR #cats ]]>The Bigscreen folks suggested washing the facial interface gasket with soapy water, and that seems to have fixed the skin irritation. So there must have just been some residue left over.
I also printed a Vive DAS adapter so now I have a much easier time putting the headset on and setting up the audio and so on. It ends up not sitting on my head quite right, though, and adjusting the fit to my eyes is a little more fiddly. Unfortunately the design of the BSB doesn’t make it easy to put on a top support strap (the DAS adapter has a little dealybop for the DAS’s top strap but I couldn’t get it to stay attached with double-sided tape and I’m not yet willing to use permanent adhesive) so my choices are either off-axis lenses or having it so tight it gives me a headache.
I also ended up removing the lens inserts for now, and I’ll wait for the QC-passing ones to arrive.
Everything is just so sharp now. I like it.
#VR #virtual reality #hardware ]]>(via IndieWeb News)
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