An application to help musicians encode and distribute their music to various websites. Get it on itch.io, or get the source code.
]]>I am so tired of getting misgendered, constantly.
I’m finally starting voice training with an actual, accredited vocal coach who specializes in gender-affirming stuff, at least. Hopefully that’ll help. The last one I saw was a big waste of time and money, and she was just making stuff up as she went along and not even doing much to help me anyway. But this one is an actual doctor at an actual clinic who takes my insurance and so on, and a friend of mine had very good results with her as well. Hopefully that’ll take the edge off of some stuff.
Like how the fucking federal government has a mandate to misgender me. I had to renew my passport (as it’s my only valid travel document, since my Washington driver’s license hasn’t been upgraded with RealID, because I had a valid passport so they were like “nah you don’t need to do this”). When I last renewed it in 2016 it was with the thought that this would be my last chance to update the gender marker for a while, and getting it taken care of before Trump took office made it urgent. I never would have suspected that the change would be reverted, but, here we go.
Also, social security denied my disability claim, and a big part of the ruling was based on me having undergone hormone replacement therapy. So of course I made that a part of the reason for my appeal. So today I just got a denial for the appeal, saying that they do not agree that the HRT aspect shows discrimination, and they see no other evidence of procedural problems with the denial, even though my lawyer wrote a pretty comprehensive thing about all of the procedural issues.
But it’s not just the government. People in my social circles don’t respect my gender anymore. Even in VRChat, where I have a femmy avatar and a permanent “they/she” pronoun thing, people have started thinking I’m a dude. Even though so many people I know insist they had no idea I wasn’t a cis woman! It’s so baffling. Even people who have known me for a while have started introducing my performance sets with a he/him misgendering. What, entirely, the fuck?!
And I’ve been hiring a cleaning and organization consultant (something that should have been covered by disability, if I were able to fucking get it) and while she’s been suepr helpful, she also keeps misgendering me, and at this point I’m just too fucking tired to try correcting anyone.
I’m hoping that in July I can spend more time in the studio and actually working on music. I’ve been performing a lot and that wears me out. I have so many pieces of music I want to actually get recorded. I want to finish at least one of the three albums I’ve been actively working on. I’m just feeling too fucking tired to do it though.
I’m also tired because of the endless shit with Spotify and Bandcamp and all the other things, and how now there’s endless purity tests where people are starting to hate the musicians who are trying to sell stuff where it sells, instead of the platforms that make things bad for those very same musicians.
And I’ve been trying to work more on Canimus, and I am so very tired by how people keep trying to undermine it by diverting the conversation over to the very same protocols that weren’t a good match for what it’s trying to do to begin with. And now now that there are things putting it into production there are a bunch of things I’d love to be different about it. But hopefully now that it’s starting to gain traction there can be a more principled discussion about doing it better, and there aren’t so many people using it yet that it’s an intractable problem, at least.
I’m also so tired with the constant expectation that I’m constantly producing and performing and interacting and being super nice and friendly through all of it. And that I’m not doing enough (“you should market yourself more!” “you should do collaborations!” “you should do more videos!” and on and on), when I’m already doing more than I can.
I really want to work on my pottery again too. But that’s been hard for me to overcome the gravity well on.
I also ended up needing to do some last-minute art for CoCA’s annual member show, which I didn’t realize I was even being selected for. And then getting the artwork delivered to the gallery was annoying, because I’m still not driving (nor do I expect that to change anytime soon), and, of course, this is the sort of thing that disability services would be able to help me with, if I were to qualify for it, but apparently I cannot.
Apparently the show opened today. I’m too tired to care right now.
I am so tired of people telling me that things just aren’t right (yeah no shit), or that I should work with a disability lawyer (I fucking have been), or that I should flee the country (as if other countries would want to take a disabled, unemployable trans person).
Also, for all of the problems with the United States, I like my home, I like my town, I just wish there were better transit access and alternate paths to getting support that didn’t rely on the fucking federal government.
And meanwhile, I get people telling me that it’s trans peoples' fault for caring so much about their pronouns that it’s turned the world against us. No, fuck that. Fuck anyone who says that shit. And I’m too tired to explain why. If you still don’t get it, do your own fucking research, because I’m also tired of sealions.
Chronic conditions fucking suck and I want to get better but I don’t see any path for that to even happen.
I still refuse to let entropy win but sometimes I wish it would anyway.
#disability #social security #art #music #Canimus #bandcamp #everything #fatigue #cleaning ]]>Furality went great! I had a lot of fun seeing folks I hadn’t seen in a while, a heck of a lot of people checked out my booth, I gained a lot of new fans, and I contributed some of my homemade espresso cups and home-roasted espresso to the charity auction and it helped raise another $1010 for Resilient Hearts! The con as a whole raised something like $115,000! Furries are amazing.
One fun highlight of the weekend was when I was doing an impromptu set in the Dealer’s Den spawn area, and I got a pretty good audience, including some folks who were enraptured by my booth video. Folks made requests that I play the jingle from it, which I did, and the crowd went wild! And then one person told me that this song had been their new vocal stim all weekend and then they shared a dubstep remix that they did of it, which was hilarious. I failed to remember their name, unfortunately, but if whoever it is would like to say hi, please do so!
Another fun thing happened where I was in the “greymuzzles meetup” (I’m old lol) and suddenly I heard “OMG it’s Sockpuppet!” and suddenly I was being mobbed by like four people who all wanted to say hi to me, much to the confusion of the other folks I was with.
I also got to meet Hiyu and Ashtalon, who do the sound and music for Furality, and expressed interest in working with them in the future. They said they don’t really have any need for additional sound/music people but who knows what’ll happen over the next year.
Anyway, the response to my espresso cups was pretty amazing. Obviously they wouldn’t normally go for $1010 outside of a charity auction but there were a lot of nice comments on them and people saying they’d love to have ones like them, and that’s gotten me back in the mood for working on ceramics again.
Seattle City Light has a home weatherization thing that they do for low-income homeowners, which has got to be a very tiny sliver of a Venn diagram1 in these parts but I happen to be within it, so I got an energy audit many months ago. Anyway the audit found a bunch of stuff that needed improving in my house, and this Monday the construction crew came through and fixed it.
In particular, they redid the insulation in my attic (I had actually paid quite a lot of money for it a few years ago but they did an incomplete job and couldn’t get to the whole house for some reason, but when I got a new roof last year I think that opened up some crevices), sealed the sill plate, properly weather-stripped my basement door, and fixed a bunch of other little things. They also upgraded my bathroom exhaust fan and dryer vent. Good stuff.
I also hired a home organization consultant for a 5-hour session, which was a bit more than I could handle all at once but it was her minimum session time, and we got so much done. My kitchen and dining room aren’t a cluttered mess. My office is much tidier. My basement/studio doesn’t feel like a disaster area! I don’t dread going down there anymore, so maybe I can start working on music again.
And of course now that my basement is much better-organized I can consider working on ceramics again, so maybe I’ll get back to doing more espresso cups (and other things).
This also got things to a state where I could finally take care of a project I’ve been meaning to do for years; the concrete pad where my old furnace was is a jagged mess that’s just wasted space, and I’d been planning for quit esome time to fill in the voids with sand and then do a layer of concrete on top, so that I could use it as a space to keep a small refrigerator to keep drinks in. A friend very kindly gave me a spare dorm fridge a few months ago but it’s just been sitting around doing nothing, and so today I finally got some bags of sand and concrete delivered and got it… mostly done. I underestimated how much concrete I needed so I’ll need to get another bag to finish the job, but soon I should be able to have nice beverages at the ready.
On the note of music, I am still very inspired to record more of my next album, Misfits, but I’ve been super busy, between Furality and all of the shows I’m doing. I’ve also been given a last-minute short set at TPVR, which should be fun.
I’m giving Zen Browser another try. It’s working a lot better than it did the last time I tried it. The UI is still very strange compared to other current browsers but it’s not necessarily a bad thing.
On a related note, I’m still using gram despite its foibles. Emacs didn’t stick for me this time around. But there’s still some things Sublime Text does better and I might just switch back to it. Intel apps on macOS have been given a stay of execution for another year (as macOS 27 will continue to include Rosetta) so I could stay on version 3 for now, but I’ll probably just bite the bullet and pay for 4.
I already posted about it but holy shit I’m turning 48 on Sunday, where did the time go
When I was a kid I never thought I’d make it to 30, and now 50 is just a blink away. And all in all I’ve never felt happier with my life, and is it weird to actually feel optimistic for the future? Sure, there’s a lot of stuff that’s bad now, but now will eventually end.
We all just gotta keep fighting for the future, because soon the future will be now.
yes I know Venn diagrams don’t actually work that way, don’t @ me ↩
<ul>I already posted a Furality-specific entry on the blogpuppet, but since this is what I consider my main website, I guess I’ll cover all my bases! So, here’s another little FAQ.
I’m fluffy. That has been my real-life nickname since 2003, well before I renamed my fursona to match (which happened sometime in 2004 or thereabouts).
Note that “fluffy” is the name I respond to! Sometimes people call me “Sockpuppet” but that’s my band, not my me. Also sometimes people call me “fluffy OwO” because I used to have θωθ in my VRChat username to make it unique. Also that’s not how it’s pronounced.
Me? I’m a human.
Now, my fursona is a critter! I have a song about it.
There’s vague and inconsistent lore about it. The short version is that it’s just a nondescript “generic furry” that takes on aspects I think of as cute.
Previously I had a few separate fursonas, most of whom were porcupines, and one was a grue.
Incidentally, I’m not a therian, but I get why people assume I am.
This site is pretty much a shrine to my ADHD.
Originally I registered the domain name as a joke (say it out loud if you don’t get it), then later I decided to use it to host one of my webcomics, and then later still I decided to just use it as my main website for everything else. So pretty much everything I do aside from music lives here now.
I don’t really post to much here aside from the blog most of the time, although I’ve been slowly working on rebuilding my shop section. Someday I’ll also get back to working on comics too. In particular, I really want to finish both Lewi and Unity (no relation to the game engine) someday. But I only have so much energy these days (due to some chronic health issues) and I like to focus primarily on music.
Even though my “main thing” these days is making music, I still do a decent amount of software development. My current big projects:
I’m also super into coffee which sometimes crosses over with other things.
I also have a billion hobbies that take varying amounts of time and energy. For a hot minute I was doing ceramics and I’m hopefully going to get back into it soon enough (if you came here because of the Furality charity auction and were interested in buying my espresso cups, hi, I see you!) and I also have a bunch of other things I need to get around to listing on my shop. The best way to get notified about those things is probably by followng me on ko-fi, although any new product releases will also appear in this site’s RSS feed.
Speaking of RSS feeds, you can also subscribe to just the categories that you care about, if you don’t want to see everything.
The linkbar on the main page is probably a good starting point. Of all the things there, I’m most active on Mastodon. You can also feel free to join my Discord community which is typically pretty quiet but has some cool people in it.
And of course here’s my VRChat profile. Feel free to join my music group or get some plaid wallpaper for your nameplate.
#furality #VRChat #furry ]]>
An application to help musicians encode and distribute their music to various websites. Get it on itch.io, or get the source code.
]]>For a while I’ve been using Gram, which is a pretty nice code-oriented text editor that tries to make everything Good, Actually™, and is basically an anti-AI fork of Zed. It’s pretty nice in that it’s fast and has good UX, but there’s a bunch of stuff that really bugs me, the more I use it.
The main reason I switched to it is because Sublime Text 3 is Intel-only and is not going to be supported on macOS for much longer, but Sublime Text 4 made a bunch of changes I don’t like and also is Quite Expensive now.
I think for now I’ll stick with Gram and just disable the language server stuff, but I’d really like something that works, y'know, better. Maybe I’ll give Sublime Text 4 another try and consider sending them some cash again, or something. I dunno. $100 is a lot for a text editor.
Unfortunately all the other popular code editors these days are even worse in terms of being, like, completely overloaded with useless crap and full of AI garbage, and are also usually built inside of Electron or similar things which make them feel slow and annoying.
Maybe I’ll give Emacs another try. It’s been a whie.
I used to sell things on Etsy, but it became a quite frustrating (and expensive) experience. Very much not worth it.
I also used to sell things on Gumroad, but meh to that.
I tried selling stuff on Artisans Cooperative but that site is an absolute mess that is built with very good intentions but not a lot of technical acumen. I have one product listing there and all I receive from it is attempted phishing scams, and whenever I report the phishing scams as directed, if I get a response at all it’s usually a guilt trip about how under-resourced they are.
Anyway, recently I remembered that Ko-Fi has a storefront and I’ve been working on rebuilding that shop. So far I’m just focusing on putting my music there and fixing my listings for my digital comic collections, and also fixing the very neglected shop page on this site to update the links as appropriate. I’ll probably also list my physical goods on Ko-Fi, but I don’t know how they handle things like variations and shipping rates (the two things that every site makes really frustrating).
I wrote a bit about this on the Blogpuppet, but it’s getting really annoying to manage my music sales channels. Right now when I release something I post it on my own site and then also prepare it for sale on Bandcamp, Mirlo, itch.io, Subvert, and Ko-Fi. I also have to upload it to Symphonic and KVRR for the various exposure opportunities those afford. It’s a nightmare.
Bandcrash makes a lot of this a lot easier, though. I have scripts to take a Bandcrash album and populate my website, and with the generated .zip files it’s absolutely trivial to post the actual downloads on Ko-Fi and Mirlo; Mirlo’s is also nice in that it’ll automatically extract the relevant metadata. (And KVRR is simple in that I just send some .flac files to the dude who runs it via Discord or whatever.)
The other sales channels are really annoying, though:
If I had my druthers I’d just upload to Ko-Fi and maybe Mirlo (since that makes individual track sales possible), but that’s not where my actual sales happen. Most people think of Bandcamp as the gold standard for indie music sales, even though they take a pretty bad cut and can’t even really justify it anymore since it’s not like their editorial or discovery channels are worth a damn at this point. (Plus, they’re owned by Songtradr, and fuck Songtradr.)
I am really hoping for a future where I only have to post my music to my own website and then provide paid access to the full-quality downloads in some ideally-tightly-integrated way. Canimus will hopefully be a part of that future, although any federated protocol would be better than the current state of things.
I have high hopes for Fairplayer.
But with all that said, right now I’m making very little money on music. The only sales channel which gets anything right now is Bandcamp and I made all of $4.50 over the last month there. My lunch today cost $5.85.
I like my house, and mostly like my town. But my country is very quickly turning into a fascistic hellhole, and it’s becoming quite dangerous to be trans. Even in Seattle I am constantly hearing about people being accosted simply for being trans. There was a very high-profile murder of a trans student at the university, who was committing the grievous sin of doing her laundry. I’ve had friends have the cops be called on them for using the “wrong” bathroom or changing room at the gym (including very-masc-presenting transmasc folks).
In Seattle.
This isn’t supposed to happen here.
Lately I’ve been thinking about exit strategies. I really like Victoria, BC, because it’s nearby, housing is reasonably affordable (at least compared to Seattle), and it has amazing bicycle infrastructure (which is one of the few things that’s sorely lacking in my current town).
But immigrating into Canada is quite tricky, especially as a disabled, living-off-investment-income, neurodivergent trans person with no Canadian heritage.
The Netherlands also seem nice, particularly Amsterdam, which has amazing bike infrastructure (heck, anyone who watches urbanist YouTube gets plenty of videos from one particularly notorious channel that will just not shut up about it), and by all accounts it’s super trans-friendly there, and it’s apparently quite open to Americans both culturally and in terms of immigration policy. In particular, the poorly-named (or is it?) DAFT visa looks like a very good option, as it allows American ex-pats to register a freelance business there and give themselves a work visa.
But, gosh, that sure requires a pretty strong commitment, and I’m not ready to uproot just yet. (But I worry that if things get worse, the DAFT program will go away…)
In the meantime I do at least need to renew my passport, which expires in 7 months. I’m not looking forward to the gender marker reset.
Also one of the things I like about my current living situation is having a nice private, isolated recording studio in my home, which is necessary for playing instruments (especially drums). I’d still be able to do that in Victoria pretty easily. I don’t think that’s nearly as accessible in Amsterdam.
I guess after the midterms I will have a clearer picture of where things are going.
That’s going well, although today I think I injected myself with a couple of rubber particles from the stopper. Oops.
#music #software #commerce ]]>Well, here’s how.
My fatigue has gotten a lot worse lately. I’m having trouble mustering up the energy to do things, and what energy I do muster tends to go to things that are critical, rather than fun. Gardening (of the basic upkeep variety), getting groceries, cooking food, that sort of thing.
Last Black Friday I bought an ebike (well, two of them, actually, the other one which I bought impulsively and then tried to cancel the order is still sitting in its box and I really ought to sell it) and I’ve had a few rides on it which have gone fairly well, but today I decided to ride it to get groceries and just as I was approaching the store I got hit by a huge wave of fatigue and had to quickly get off the road before I fell over. In doing so I very nearly avoided getting run over by a truck that was turning way too fast. Fun times.
Anyway, I still did my shopping and had to push through it, and afterwards I did manage to ride home safely enough, but it was still, uh, worrying.
I feel like there’s something I could try to do in order to build my stamina back up. I used to play DDR for an hour or two every day, but I had to stop because it was getting to be very hard on my knees, and my plan was to build a lapboard so that I could at least try to build up some upper-body strength but I never got around to doing that either, and I just realized I’ve had all the parts for it just lying around for the last four years. Jeeze.
I had gotten some momentum going on my next album, but after recording a few songs I took a break to work on some other things, and now I’m having a very difficult time working up the energy to even go to my recording studio to work on things. And even doing my VRChat gigs has gotten to be difficult. When I first started those, 60 minutes was easy to do, no problem, and now I’m finding that I have to push through it at the 45-minute mark.
A couple weeks ago I did spend a decent amount of time working on my booth for Furality which involved making a bunch of art and also making a minute-long video that was the single most ambitious video project I’ve ever done (yes, even moreso than the previous most ambitious video project). I’m hoping that it at least gets me some attention and some people wanting to buy my music and commissioning me to make more, although, gosh, the prospect of going back to those kinds of hours long-term also fills me with dread.
At some point I also need to get around to building my Nerdy Gurdy. I was so excited to finally acquire one but it’s just been sitting in my basement, and I haven’t even unpacked it yet. My plan was to stream the build on my music YouTube channel but, gah. tired.
I’ve also found that getting to choir practice is too much effort and doesn’t result in a feeling of joy, so I’ve ended up stepping back from the choir again. Part of it is the fatigue, part of it is because the choir’s just gotten so big and at this point it feels like it’s not satisfying me in the way that it used to. The concerts this year also badly conflict with other stuff that are much more important to me. So removing the weekly “get to the church” reminder from my calendar felt more like a relief than anything.
I was hoping that this current fatigue problem was just due to the HRT saga and that getting my levels back in check would fix everything. Injections have helped me with a lot of stuff, and it’s nice that my boobs are starting to grow again even after so long, but the fatigue hasn’t been affected by it at all as far as I can tell. I do have an appointment later this week to get my levels checked to make sure I’m on the right path though. It’s possible the dose still needs to be adjusted.
The last time I saw my cardiologist he said I should get another sleep study, and he referred me to a sleep clinic within his hospital system. It took forever to get an appointment, and when I finally did, they got me down for an in-home sleep study, but it turns out that the clinic is a 90-minute drive or a three-hour bus ride away (because his hospital system shut down all of their sleep clinics in Seattle for some fucking reason, and they would not refer me to another practice closer to me), and even though the sleep study was in-home they still needed me to come in person to pick up the device and be trained on how to use it. Even more annoyingly, the first appointment they have for the pickup isn’t until August, and their appointments are all in the morning. There is no fucking way I’d be able to do that.
So I’ve asked my GP about finding a sleep clinic closer to Seattle/Burien/White Center. Hopefully I can find something more amenable to my transportation and time-of-day limitations.
I’m not super optimistic about the current state of sleep medicine anyway, though. It’s all about CPAP/APAP, and that has never helped me at all.
Fiona has officially turned 15 (she’s possibly a bit older but her shelter records estimated her as having been born around May of 2011). She’s gotten so grumpy lately, and finicky about food. But she’s still my lovely little squish. I just wish she’d actually eat the food she’s been given.
My shitty Corolla is still fulfilling its duty as a decoy to stop people from trying to steal my bike. I’ve moved it all of three times in the past month, twice of which was due to some driveway repair stuff. That’s a whole other mess I’d rather not talk about though.
I wish I could have just gone car-free, because it’s not like I’m even using this car, I’m just constantly beying annoyed by it. I need some better way of signaling that my home is occupied despite there not being a motor vehicle in the open carport. Unfortunately, converting my carport into a closed garage is not a feasible solution, either.
Cars are cool tech but revolving all of society around them was a mistake.
I’m fuckin tired, y'all
#blogging #life updates #fatigue #choir ]]>I bought Magnet ages ago, back when it first came out. At the time it was pretty much the only reliable window management system around.
Recently I learned about Rectangle, which does largely the same thing, but is free, opensource, and has a few other nice changes, and after trying it out a bit I switched. Here’s some of what it does better:
I’ve been a big fan of Sublime Text for a bit over a decade, ever since I started at HBO and needed to edit more JavaScript, which Emacs wasn’t very good at. I happily paid for version 3.0 and enjoyed it for quite a time, and put in a lot of effort to wrangle its many extensions and settings sync functionality and so on.
When 4.0 came out they changed the licensing scheme, and also changed a bunch of the UX in ways I didn’t particularly like, so I didn’t have any reason to upgrade.
Then the 3.0 packages got more and more ornery to maintain, and it was super easy for settings to get broken and crufty and for things to just get weird and slow and annoying.
Anyway, I’ve been running the macOS Developer Beta on one of my computers and today after it updated I got a big warning that since Sublime Text 3 is Intel-only it will no longer be supported by macOS in the not-too-distant future.
At one point I’d been evaluating Zed and it was nice and simple, except it also came with a whole bunch of agentic coding stuff built-in and it was constantly nagging me and getting in the way. As you might imagine, I do not care for agentic coding, and Zed’s increasing marketing towards being Everything Agentic really rubbed me the wrong way.
More recently I found out about Gram, a fork of Zed that’s been decrapified, cleaned up, and generally improved in terms of being more humane and so on. So tonight I gave it a try, and while there’s still a few things I don’t super love about it (for example, you can’t detach tabs from a window frame or move them between frames), there’s a bunch that it gets right:
I’m currently using it with Cascadia Code and the built-in One Light/One Dark themes and it’s pretty nice-looking.
There’s still some rough spots:
but most of these are just things to get used to, or things I can fix through understanding configuration. There’s also a bunch of display preferences that I find interesting but weird, like by default it only shows the absolute line number for the line you’re on and then all other line numbers are shown as relative to the current line. I’m not sure if I like that or not, but it’s easy enough to toggle it.
Also I should maybe finally make a Publ-Markdown formatting thingy because Gram’s Markdown highlighter gets confused by Publ’s Markdown extensions (particularly image sets), although it’s no worse than Sublime Text’s and if anything it recovers much more gracefully.
This is pretty straightforward. On my first computer I did:
mv ~/.config/gram ~/Sync ln -s ~/Sync/gram ~/.config
and on my other computers I did:
ln -s ~/Sync/gram ~/.config
and now everything works great. This applies to both macOS and Linux. I have no idea where the settings live on Windows, but I don’t do any coding from Windows anymore.
#technology #software #macOS #Sublime Text #gram #text editors #UI #window management ]]>UPDATE (4/14/2026): I was wrong about the source of the issue that led to me writing this article, but it’s still the same issue! It just happened somewhere else in the chain than my investigations led me to believe. Which still emphasizes the point.
According to the HTML specification, single-quoted attributes are perfectly valid; for example, these HTML fragments should be absolutely equivalent:
<a href="https://example.com/">Check out my website</a> <a href='https://example.com/'>Check out my website</a> <a href=https://example.com/>Check out my website</a>
However, there are many, many client implementations which expect any quoted attributes to be double-quoted, and even some which do not support unquoted attributes at all. So, for example, I’ve seen many implementations assume that a single-quoted attribute is equivalent to an unquoted attribute, so it treats these as equivalent:
<a href='https://example.com/'>Check out my website</a> <a href="'https://example.com/'">Check out my website</a>
which is to say, if <a href='https://example.com/'>Check out my website</a> appears on the website https://foo.example/~bob/homepage.html, the URL then is interpreted as being https://foo.example/~bob/'https://example.com' (or https://foo.example/~bob/%39https://example.com%39 if we’re being strict about URL-encoding).
Unquoted attributes also often are subject to all sorts of weird things, especially with how the entities within them get decoded.
Email systems are historically particularly bad about this; the impetus to this article was discovering that my email provider1 does not support single-quoted attributes, and goes so far as to converting the quotes to UPDATE: It turns out the problem was not with Fastmail, but with some library on the sender’s side which was misencoding the quoted attributes! Fastmail did nothing wrong here!' entities, causing even more problems downstream.
So, for maximum compatibility, it’s best to always use double-quoted attributes, regardless of what the HTML specification says.
Back in the day, it was pretty common for websites to serve things up in a mixture of HTTP (plaintext) and HTTPS (encrypted), and there were reasons to want static pages to link to external resources with the same scheme (for example, an HTTP page referring to an external image with an HTTP URL, but the HTTPS version of the page using an HTTPS URL for the image).
I cannot find any official specification for HTML, but the commonly-accepted standard for these, per the generic URI syntax, considers the initial //hostname to be the starting portion of the path component of the URL, which is to say, a protocol-relative URL of //example.com/foo should be treated by adding the current page’s scheme to the URL; for example, from https://example.com/~bob/homepage.html, a link to //website.example/meow.gif should be interpreted as https://website.example/meow.gif, while from http://example.com/~alice/ the same link would become http://website.example/meow.gif.
Unfortunately, a lot of software out there just sees that the link starts with a / and assumes it’s a site-relative URL instead, so from https://example.com/~bob/ it is interpreted as https://example.com/website.example/meow.gif.
You can see how your browser implements such a link.
In any case, it’s better to be explicit about your URL scheme, and in general if a site supports https it’s best to just link to that version anyway.
In most operating systems, there is a convention that .. refers to the parent directory, so for example the path /foo/bar/../baz is equivalent to /foo/baz. Additionally, . refers to the current directory, and / is seen as a path separator. So a path of /foo/bar/./baz is equivalent to /foo/bar/baz, for example.
Most web-based things will automatically apply these rules, even if it’s technically incorrect; for example, both Apache and nginx will internally manipulate the URL to treat them as equivalent before it even touches the backing application, and even if they don’t, it seems that most application stacks will also pre-coalesce the URL.
But on the client side, browsers will also automatically do this path coalescing before it even forms the URL to be requested; for example, ../blog/ and even https://junk.sockpuppet.band/foo/bar/../../songlets/ never even show up in the DOM with any of the .. components from most browsers (although I have seen some clients preserve them in some cases). Strictly-speaking those URLs shouldn’t even be equivalent, because foo/bar is a nonexistent path on both of those sites, so based purely on filesystem rules those should result in a 404 Not Found error. But things are being short-circuited for the sake of friendliness. And if you enter a URL manually, by copy-pasting e.g. https://beesbuzz.biz/foo/../code/ into your location bar, every modern browser I’ve tried will just automagically coalesce the path component.
(Note that how it coalesces // is inconsistent, in my experience; some browsers treat it as a subdirectory with an empty name, while others treat it as if it’s the same as a single /, the same as UNIX.)
But it’s not necessarily the case that the path will be coalesced. For example, here’s a trivial WSGI application that just passes through a couple of things from the request:
def app(environ, start_response): start_response("200 OK", [("Content-Type", "text/plain")]) for key in ('HTTP_HOST', 'RAW_URI'): yield f'{key}: {environ[key]}\n'.encode('utf-8')
And here’s some outputs when run through gunicorn; for starters, by default, curl coalesces /./ and /../ (but not //) client-side:
bean:~ $ curl -i http://localhost:8000/foo//moo/./bar/../baz/ HTTP/1.1 200 OK Server: gunicorn Date: Wed, 08 Apr 2026 20:36:44 GMT Connection: close Transfer-Encoding: chunked Content-Type: text/plain HTTP_HOST: localhost:8000 RAW_URI: /foo//moo/baz/ bean:~ $ curl -i http://localhost:8000/foo//moo/../../bar/ HTTP/1.1 200 OK Server: gunicorn Date: Wed, 08 Apr 2026 20:42:56 GMT Connection: close Transfer-Encoding: chunked Content-Type: text/plain HTTP_HOST: localhost:8000 RAW_URI: /foo/bar/
But a request that uses the path as-is will still at least pass through directly, at least through gunicorn itself:
bean:~ $ curl -i http://localhost:8000/foo//moo/./bar/../baz/ --path-as-is HTTP/1.1 200 OK Server: gunicorn Date: Wed, 08 Apr 2026 20:40:09 GMT Connection: close Transfer-Encoding: chunked Content-Type: text/plain HTTP_HOST: localhost:8000 RAW_URI: /foo//moo/./bar/../baz/
But in other testing I have found that, at least with a stack of nginx+gunicorn+Flask, the path coalescing takes place somewhere before it hits the actual application. (I do not have the patience to try to figure out where, exactly, not that it even matters.)
All this is to say, you cannot expect runs of multiple / or paths containing /./ or /../ to remain intact, even when the request is being made at the wire level, but you also cannot assume that the path will be pre-coalesced.
Case-sensitivity and lack thereof in the hostname is also something you cannot rely on:
$ curl -ivvv http://beesbuzz.biz/ | head * Host beesbuzz.biz:80 was resolved. [...] > GET / HTTP/1.1 > Host: beesbuzz.biz [...] < link: <https://webmention.io/beesbuzz.biz/webmention>; rel="webmention" < Link: <https://beesbuzz.biz/_tokens>; rel="token_endpoint" [...] $ curl -sivvv http://BeesBuzz.Biz/ | head * Host BeesBuzz.Biz:80 was resolved. [...] > GET / HTTP/1.1 > Host: BeesBuzz.Biz [...] < link: <https://webmention.io/beesbuzz.biz/webmention>; rel="webmention" < Link: <https://beesbuzz.biz/_tokens>; rel="token_endpoint" [...]
In this case, note that curl preserved the case of the domain name in the Host: parameter, but something within the stack converted the hostname to all-lowercase (as can be seen in the link headers in the response). Whether this is happening in nginx or Flask is uncertain (and I, again, do not feel a particular need to figure out where this takes place, although I’d assume it’s at the vhost — and therefore nginx — level), but gunicorn does preserve the case of the hostname (using the same minimal WSGI app as above):
bean:~ $ curl http://LocalHost:8000/ HTTP_HOST: LocalHost:8000 RAW_URI: /
So, as with path coalescing, you cannot assume that elements will be case-folded for you, but you also cannot assume that they won’t be.
And of course, path resolution for resources is up to the underlying implementation; a webserver running on macOS or Windows will (usually) treat /foo.jpg and /foo.JPG as the same resource, while on Linux, those are different resources. Of course the browser will hopefully treat them as separate for the purpose of caching, but: you cannot guarantee this.
As one of my college professors once said, “If it makes a difference whether something is case-sensitive or not, you have made a mistake.”
Nothing in the HTTP specification says that the same path on two different schemes will reflect the same resource; for example, http://example.com/ and https://example.com/ can very well be completely different websites. But I have seen plenty of browsers, web crawlers, and other software assume that they are the one and the same!
At its most trivial, this very site will have slightly different content for the two versions; there are a handful of places where out of necessity, some links do not appear on the http version, or where they are rendered as absolute links and will match the original request’s scheme rather than directing to https.
But things can be a lot more complicated. For example, once upon a time I ran a site where the http version was an informational page and the https version was the webmail for the domain. It was silly to do it that way, and I stopped doing it when browsers started being “helpful” about automatically converting http URLs to https (not to mention when I stopped hosting my own email and switched to other hosting providers), but you absolutely cannot just assume that two pages will be the same despite different URL schemes.
(Also, remember that URL schemes other than http and https exist! FTP, Gopher, and others might have fallen out of fashion, but they still exist. Not to mention nascent protocols like Gemini.)
From a server implementation standpoint, you should assume that clients can and will treat differing schemes as identical, so if a website is available from both protocols, the content should match between them, and if something is only available via https, then an http request to the same resource should redirect to the https one.
But from a client standpoint, you really should consider the scheme to be a part of the URL.
www. prefixes (and other subdomain issues)Back in the early days of the Internet, it was common for a domain to host a whole bunch of different services, for example ftp.example.com, irc.example.com, mail.example.com, and so on, and many of these would even be hosted by separate physical servers with their own IP addresses. So when the web started up as an experimental thing it was super common to just spin up another server named www, and that was the one and only way that people would reference the website; there often wouldn’t even be a root domain A record.
In those days, the hostname used to resolve the site had no impact on the resource returned; in fact the Host: request header didn’t even exist, and it wasn’t until quite some time later that browsers started sending that, to support name-based virtual hosting. Every website needed its own IP address. (Note that many non-HTTP protocols still have this limitation.)
As the web became the primary use of the Internet, the www prefix convention remained, and you had a big hot mess of differing implementations:
www resolve to the same server, which would then serve up the same content on either hostnameexample.com and www.example.com to the same virtual host configurationwww.example.com to example.comexample.com to www.example.comexample.com vs. www.example.comPretty much all of these remain to this very day, and to make things even more fun, many clients try to do “helpful” things where, for example, if example.com doesn’t resolve it’ll automatically redirect to www.example.com (or put up a prompt to that effect), or if a web crawler sees both hostnames it’ll just assume that both are the same, or follow the preference of whomever implemented it.
I don’t even know what the best practice should be in this case. I guess it should be something like:
www.example.com and example.com are different websites and use canonical URLs to sort out which is the “real” one if they both exist, even if this means potentially crawling the same site twiceThen again, the same issue comes up with sites that are available from multiple separate domains, and I’ve also seen situations where badly-behaved crawlers will assume that all subdomains are equivalent (e.g. alice.example.com and bob.example.com), sometimes even getting confused by ccTLDs that are multi-level (like .uk) and thinking that, for example, example.co.uk and google.co.uk are the same site because they’re both subdomains of co.uk! (This was especially bad back when so-called “dynamic DNS” providers were super common.)
There are so many different kinds of HTTP redirection, each with different implications on caching, HTTP method, and equivalence.
Clients should probably just note the type and target of a redirection rather than try to treat the URLs as equivalent; for example, /code and /code/ are distinct URLs and should be treated as such.
Like, in theory, /code could not redirect and instead have entirely different content from /code/, but in practice, this will almost certainly cause Problems, and I’m sure there’s even crawlers out there which strip off trailing slashes and then expect the actual request to be redirected.
When implementing client software, you should do whatever you can to follow the specification, but when implementing server software, you should also be aware of common client implementation issues.
If you do run into an implementation issue, it is of course a kindness to inform the implementor of the mistake, but some of these issues are common enough that it’s best to accommodate the common misunderstandings and just sigh quietly about it.
I have of course reported this as a bug which they did a great job of investigating and found the real root cause. They are, incidentally, otherwise amazing; use my referral link for 10% off your first year of service. ↩
This insurance uses high copays on medication in order to “encourage the use” of cheaper medications. I have four medications which are expensive and get a $100/month copay, so I’m still paying $400/month on those meds.
Two of those meds have copay assistance programs, which present their own set of problems, and insurance companies hate that they exist, because they’re a retroactive incentive to make it easier for people to swallow the high copays on the meds while insurance still has to pay the bulk of the price, and the pharmaceutical companies bake the copay assistance program discount into the retail price of the medicine anyway so it’s not like they’re hurt by it at all.
But if I had to pay out-of-pocket for these meds, I’d be paying more for them than for my house.
Here’s the four medications that I’m on which are this expensive, and why they really shouldn’t be:
After my first DVT (the one which turned into an embolism and almost killed me) I was on warfarin, a very cheap, generic blood thinner, but it requires constant monitoring and since it was my first DVT, treatment called for only a six-month course with monitoring.
After my second DVT indicated that this is a chronic condition, I’ve been on Xarelto, a blood thinner that is self-regulating and doesn’t put me in as much danger of spontaneous hemorrhages. It also means not having to do weekly bloodwork with my doctor.
Xarelto’s patents have all expired as of 2025 and there are several generics that have been approved by the FDA, but they all cost just as much as the original and aren’t available in the dose I take anyway.
I have familial hypercholesterolemia, which is to say that at a genetic level my liver produces way too much cholesterol. I inherited this from my dad. Regardless of diet or exercise my cholesterol levels are always super high.
I also cannot tolerate statins, which cause me massive, excruciating full-body pain, along with muscle failure.
So, Repatha is the only cholesterol-lowering treatment that I can tolerate, and it works great! It’s a biweekly injection of monoclonal antibodies which break down the cholesterol itself. It’s a really cool immune system hack and it’s been super effective.
But it will be protected by patents until 2033 at the very earliest.
I’ve written extensively about my ongoing HRT battles, and Depo-Estradiol is what I’ve been taking for the last few weeks. It’s been pretty effective so far.
There are two common forms of injectable estradiol: valerate and cypionate. The main difference between them is the carrier oil that’s used. Valerate uses castor oil, which is cross-reactive for folks with peanut allergies, and also has a tendency to generate allergies of its own.
I am sensitive to peanuts and have a bunch of other allergies, so out of an abundance of caution, I take cypionate instead.
Valerate’s retail price is $52, and my copay on it would be $5. Cypionate costs 50x as much. All for a different carrier oil.
Cypionate’s patents don’t expire until 2034.
Cyclobenzaprine is a muscle relaxant that also helps with other aspects of fibromyalgia. It’s a well-known, super-cheap medication. Its ordinary oral formulation has a retail price of around $13.
Unfortunately, as an oral formulation it lingers in the system and has other long-term effects, as it’s processed by the liver. For me it’s a suitable rescue medication when I’m having especially bad pain flareups, but it makes me unable to do anything the next day due to extreme fatigue.
Recently, Tonmya came to market, as a sublingual, rapid-release formulation of cyclobenzaprine. As far as I can tell it is the exact same medication as before, just in a different carrier that allows it to be taken sublingually, so that it absorbs right into my blood stream and bypasses the liver. It’s also a much smaller dose, as 2.5mg knocks me out in 10-15 minutes and gives me 7-8 hours of pretty decent sleep (albeit with some really intense dreams). My generic cyclobenzaprine has a dose of 10mg (4x as much), takes hours to kick in, and stays with me all day long.
Just by changing up the carrier, though, they were able to jack up the price by around 140x, for a drug that only has niche usage (namely fibromyalgia) from a population that just plan can’t afford it (because folks with fibromyalgia tend not to be super-employed).
Its patents don’t expire until 2034.
If I had to pay the full retail price of these medications, I’d be spending about $2880/month. By comparison, the mortgage on my house in Seattle, one of the most expensive housing markets in the US, is $1800. Which is the retail price of Tonmya alone.
Pharmaceutical pricing is inhumane, and it’s only getting worse, as more and more drugs keep on getting “reformulated” for the sole purpose of protecting them by all-new patents. In most cases these “reformulations” are just different carriers or they add in additional side drugs to supposedly increase the effectiveness.
#medication #fibromyalgia #HRT #hypercholesterolemia #clotting disorder ]]>I’m now on week three of estradiol injections, and it’s going pretty well. My mood has very much stabilized, my skin has cleared back up, and I’ve gotten the hang of injections. Also my boobs are showing signs of starting to grow again, so that’s nice.
Last night I took my first dose of Tonmya, the new formulation of cyclobenzaprine (aka Flexeril) intended for long-term fibromyalgia treatment. Just like the standard pill form, the sublingual form knocks me out pretty well but then I end up having extremely intense (and emotional) dreams, and my sleep wasn’t super restful. It’ll take a few days before I can tell if I’ll get used to it and if it’ll linger in my system like Flexeril does; the point to the sublingual route is that it’s supposed to not do that, so maybe this will work better for me long-term.
I’m going to skip it tonight and possibly tomorrow because I’ve got a bunch of shows in VRChat and I want to be sure I’m awake for them, the first one especially.
Fiona’s nasal infection cleared up after a few days of antibiotics and she’s still got a week left or so. Hopefully it stays gone, because she’s in a much better mood now (plus it’s nice not having her get snot everywhere). If it does come back then we’ll know that it’s a structural or systemic issue that needs some other long-term treatment. But for now it’s nice having her back in high spirits.
I’ll be really glad to be done with giving her the doxycycline though. That stuff smells awful. Also it gets everywhere and I’m allergic to it.
#HRT #fibromyalgia #Fiona ]]>Waterfox is great, but its app icon is ugly and doesn’t look like a browser to me.
macOS does let you customize app icons but it isn’t super clear how to do it successfully, so here’s a process that works for me, as of macOS Tahoe 26.4.
and then you should have a nicer-looking app icon:
Or if you don’t want the silly Liquid Glass shaped thing it’s even easier:
Anyway, she’s really tired of going to the vet, but yesterday she got another examination with the most recent developments and it seems that whatever she has is probably systemic and/or structural. The most likely issues are that she either has a tumor or other structural issue in her nose, or she has an abscess in a tooth. It’s unlikely to be a sinus infection since it’s not bilateral.
Unfortunately, because she’s so elderly (she’s at least 15 years old, possibly older), the vet is hesitant to do anything invasive (such as dental work or a CT scan) since they’d all require anesthesia, and that can make things a lot worse.
She’s also lost a lot of weight, but it’s been difficult to keep her well-fed without also overfeeding Tyler as a consequence. It doesn’t help that she’s had typical old-lady dental problems for a while which make her unable to eat dry food anymore (and I think the mucus has impacted her sense of smell so even wet food doesn’t seem so appetizing to her right now).
So for now we’ve just got her on antibiotics which should at least help to clear up the acute infection, and if it returns later we can try other palliative approaches like steroids.
Fiona’s still super energetic and cuddly and generally a happy little creature, but she’s at the age where things could take a sudden turn for the worse and it’s time to start feeling grateful for the time I’ve had with her.
On the plus side, she’s doing a lot better than Werner did at this age and he still made it to around 19 or 20, so hopefully I still have a few years left with her. But I’m not going to go out of my way to extend her life; I’d much rather she has a happy time on this planet while she’s here.
#cats #Fiona #pet health ]]>10 years ago I was working for HBO’s VR research lab. It’s through here that I was a recipient of a joint Emmy award, but more importantly, it’s also where I finally felt comfortable coming out as trans in real life, thanks in no small part to my amazing coworkers at the time (special shout-outs in particular to Tanner and Claire; I doubt either of you are reading this but gosh did I love working with and knowing you both).
In particular, I was attending GDC 2016, and looking around and seeing all of the people of gender and realizing that the games industry was finally a much more inclusive place than when I first started in it. So many people around me expressing themselves and feeling comfortable and not being discriminated against for it. There were a handful of gross transphobes on the GDC social app, but it was easy enough to report their behavior, and gratifying to learn that they’d been evicted from the conference for it.
I felt sad for what I’d missed out on, for being stuck in my closet for so long and having never felt the support I needed to feel comfortable with publicly transitioning.
I’d worked briefly at a small games company in 1999 where the transphobia was overt, and later at Ubisoft in 2004 where it was still present enough that I didn’t feel comfortable being open about stuff to anyone (aside from one coworker who I’d met online first). Some of my gender-related stuff did leak out at Ubisoft but it was easier to just sweep it under the rug than to commit. And after Ubisoft was my first stint at Amazon, where gender variance was tolerated as a “quirk” but not really actively embraced, and then in 2007 I got recruited to Sony by a friend who I thought was savvy but turned out to very much not be, and who treated my transness as an extremely online thing.
I’d also been medically transitioning for years at this point (with a brief stint of HRT in 2004, and starting it For Realsies in 2011, and had an orchiectomy in 2014), and this had helped, but I was still basically living as a man in my daily life, and hating every moment of it.
So here I was at GDC, surrounded by people who were living their best lives and generally just Being, and I posted to the emerging trans chat on the GDC app, something like, “if I don’t come out at work by the end of the week I’m going to kill myself” in a sorta-joking way but which wasn’t really a joke. And people reached out to me to make sure I was okay, and I assured them that I was.
And then I texted my coworker Tanner. I forget exactly what I said, but it was something like, “Hey, do you think folks at HBO would be accepting if someone came out as trans? Asking for a friend (the friend is me).”
And we got to talking and it became very clear to me that coming out would be good for me and that I’d be accepted, and I changed my Slack username from “[firstname] [lastname]” to “[first initial] [lastname]” and that caused a bunch of other people to wonder what was up, and I realized I felt safe talking to them about it too, and this led to me officially coming out at work, 10 days later, which went pretty well, all things considered.
I remember it specifically being π day because this is also when I posted a Song Fight! forum thread about it, which also went (mostly) quite well. I’d been out as trans in the early days of Song Fight! but met a bunch of resistance (and occasional outright transphobia) from some folks (most of whom have since become much more accepting and are now amazing allies) and it became easier to just… roll with it and pretend not to care when people used the wrong pronouns for me, or insisted on referring to me by my deadname. I’d try to sneak in little nudges like asking that in our “Theme Song Fight” things to not use gendered pronouns when referring to me (which was usually ignored), but having the momentum of good feelings from the conversation with Tanner and the new motivation to Be Myself filled me with determination.
I haven’t done a good job of tracking most of my “transiversaries.” I have no idea when I started HRT (although it looks like it was sometime in September 2011), I always forget to celebrate my other milestones (aside from vaguely remembering that my bottom surgery happened to be almost exactly three years after my orchi, and I guess the 10th anniversary of that happens sometime in January of next year)2, but this one? This one feels meaningful enough to at least acknowledge.
It is also somewhat fitting that today I am finally switching to injectable estradiol, after much difficulty with previous methods of delivery.
Anyway. Maybe I’ll make quiche for dinner.
Anyway, happy π day.
Personally, I feel that τ has better symmetry (for example, how the area of a circle, \(A=\frac{1}{2}\tau r^2\), shares an integral basis with \(x=\frac{1}{2}at^2\), the position of an object after constant acceleration), although I try not to be annoying about it. Also, τ day happens to be exactly one fortnight after my birthday. ↩
Okay so I just looked it up, orchi was on January 30, 2014, and bottom surgery was January 27, 2017. Maybe I’ll remember to celebrate it by eating some baba ghanoush or something. ↩