busybee fluffy rambles

I’ve not been doing super great lately. I’m trying to get better, but I don’t know how.

Here’s some things going on these days, since it’s been a little while since I’ve posted here.

Things seem to be moving forward, except for where they aren’t.

I’m simultaneously doing great and not-great.

I’ve been going to physical therapy for vestibular rehabilitation for a few weeks, and right now I have good days and I have bad days when it comes to vertigo. Today was a bad day.

On the plus side, even on my bad days I seem to be able to drive, at least within town, without having a vertigo-induced panic attack. Maybe I’ll be able to start driving to choir again soon. And also finally go to Costco in person instead of paying for delivery for everything.

I’ve been accepted into Furality’s Dealer’s Den as a musician! I have a month to get my booth together and I’ve already got it like 90% done. It’s actually in an acceptable state already but there’s some more little things I want to do with the background video, and I’m learning so much DaVinci Resolve stuff to do it.

I also have a show on Sunday, at around 4:30 PM PDT. I hope folks can make it!

I’ve got stuff going on, figured I’d ramble a bit for those who care.

Some folks wanted an update and didn’t see the webmention-based updates on the last entry. I discontinued the Effexor and the concerning symptoms subsided throughout the day, and I only had minimal withdrawal symptoms (basically just a few hours of extreme nausea and some really intense dreams for a couple nights).

I’m annoyed that this didn’t end up being a workable solution but I’m still holding out hope for the vestibular rehabilitation, as well as some other things I’m trying, and whatever happens I’m determined to survive and thrive, regardless.

The only theory that anyone’s come up with for my vertigo issues that holds any weight is that they’re possibly vestibular migraines, so my neurologist put me on Effexor, which can help treat vestibular migraines.

It can also treat anxiety, fibromyalgia, and ADHD (which makes sense, as they’re all fundamentally dopamine dysregulation problems, and Effexor works primarily by regulating dopamine), so maybe this will be the magic bullet that helps me with everything. Several of my friends turn out to be taking it for their fibromyalgia and/or anxiety and they say it helps them somewhat, so, we’ll see.