busybee fluffy rambles

I’m so fucking sick of getting sick and I’m pretty sure I got this at my choir rehearsal or maybe the Museum of Flight, since that’s the only thing I was in a large crowd and/or unmasked. And unfortunately this means there’s probably going to be another breakout in the choir, although I guess the timing is as favorable as it can be since we’re about to have a two-month break. I’m so pissed that I have to miss the final Pride concert (tonight’s went amazingly, at least) and also there are so many people in the choir with even worse health issues than me, some of whom would have been directly exposed by me.

EDIT: saturday’s concert is cnceled due to my positive test multiple positive tests among the entire choir and uncertainty of how long I’ve been contagious. fuck.

(I’m also worried that my parents might get sick too but at least they just got their vaccinations updated two months ago.)

For the last few days I was blaming allergies on the way I was feeling (since pollen counts are super high and antihistamines were helping) but now I’m not so sure.

The first two times I got COVID it laid me under for a while (and the first time directly contributed to my two years of unemployment), and this time it’s definitely feeling more severe. I’m worried about long COVID and/or dying. I have so many high-risk health conditions that this is going to do a number on me.

I was also just hitting my stride with a VRChat project that I was super excited about — I made a new avatar from scratch in only a few days, and a lot of people are super into it! — but at least it can wait a bit. All I have left to do on it before releasing it is setting up the public base patterns, and of course also adding my own personal critter’s color schemes as well. And this one is way more comprehensive in how the various systems work, and I kind of want to go back and apply these new approaches to the main critter too. Like, the way I have things set up I can do arbitrary hue shifting on the materials, and the horn popping works a lot better (it only becomes visible to the wearer when it’s being popped), and while it doesn’t have all of the same facial customizations it does have clothing which can also be modified somewhat, and also it’s only 17K triangles! And I implemented some really fun shader and geometry tricks to give it proper cartoony eyes.

Anyway it seems like more than ever I could probably use some financial support, so patreon and ko-fi and music sales are things that you can do without it generating more work for me right now. I suspect I’m going to have a lot of very large medical bills, so…. yeah.

I’m also super upset because Song Fight! Live is in just a month and I have booked travel and lodging which was both expensive and nonrefundable, and whenever I get a respiratory illness I almost always have at least a month (if not more) of knock-on effects, and COVID always wipes me out with super fatigue too.

but hey at least the pandemic’s over right?