Still, I persist

Ughhhh, this has been a heck of a week.

As usual I’ve been full of pain. And my brief surge of enthusiasm for working on music got cut kind of short because of it. But I’m hoping that tomorrow feels better and I can go back to the studio.

I’m also not sure where I stand with my fatigue. The last few days I’ve had to run quick errands by car and those felt fine. But I’m not feeling courageous enough to drive further just yet, especially with how any escape from White Center means following curvy roads which are especially triggering to me.

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Rumination

I worry about where things are and how I’ll be affected by it. I feel like the dominoes are starting to fall.

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Finally fixed login

Login on this site has been a bit flaky for a while since in my never-ending fight against AI bots I had switched to a multiprocess configuration to give the site a bit more robustness, but which had the side effect of most logins only having a 50% chance of working due to fiddly details inside Publ (or, more precisely, Authl, which defaults to only being safe for single-process configurations).

So, Publ finally implements multiprocess-safe token storage, which is something I’d been meaning to add since approximately forever ago (although it seems I never opened an actual issue to track it, oops), and this should make user login reliable again.

Thanks to Spud who finally lit a fire under my butt to fix this annoying issue.

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The state of the fluffy (late December 2025 edition)

Time for another proverbial cheese sandwich post1. Thinking about the end of the year and what’s coming up for me.

This isn’t my annual aspiration wrap-up post; that’ll come later.

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The state of the fluffy

I’ve not been doing super great lately. I’m trying to get better, but I don’t know how.

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Superpositional mood

I’m simultaneously doing great and not-great.

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Doldrums

I got very little done this week and I’m feeling pretty bad about it.

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life going on

Whoops, it’s been a little while since I’ve posted here. Well, okay, here’s some of the stuff that’s going on.

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Come on baby, light my fire

Some thoughts about lighting fires, both literal and metaphorical.

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Taking a break from stuff

So yeah I’m deep in a pain flareup right now. I made sure that all of the critical bugs in bandcrash are, to my knowledge, fixed, but I just am not in a situation where I can really work on stuff right now due to a massive pain flareup.

I was just starting to work on some music for a game jam game and Novembeat but I don’t think that’s really in the cards for me this year.

And of course now that I’m in agony, suddenly a lot of folks want to interview me for engineering roles that I’d normally be very interested in, so, thanks for twisting the knife on that one.

At least choir is going pretty well and gives me stuff to look forward to.