Rumination

I worry about where things are and how I’ll be affected by it. I feel like the dominoes are starting to fall.

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Denied again

Wellp, today I got yet another denial from social security, which tells me this ain’t gonna change any time soon.

The previous denial came with a whole bunch of transphobia and also a claim that I am able to work, doing jobs which simply aren’t available and not reflective of the reality of my situation.

I haven’t received the formal denial yet, just the notification that my appeal was denied, so I suppose in a couple weeks I’ll be getting another giant packet from SSA to fume over.

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This week’s status

Wellp, I didn’t get a whole lot done on the TODO list but at least I Tried™. (I did call about the sleep study but they never returned my call and it slipped my mind to try calling again. Oh well, next week.)

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Could big tech please stop ruining enthusiast things

Back in the day, independent social media enthusiasts were building their own social spaces on RSS/Atom and self-hosted publishing. There was a huge ecosystem of feed readers and publishing software, where anyone could use their own choice of tools to interact with the space, and it was super cool.

Then Google got into it and made Google Reader, which was a really good feed reader, but they couldn’t figure out how to make it profitable and wanted to shove everyone over to Google+, so they shut Google Reader down, and then the tech press breathlessly claimed that RSS was now dead as a result, and because RSS was (in their eyes) dead, it became a self-fulfilling prophecy. Nowadays, RSS is seen as an obsolete thing only used by diehards, and corporate social media has become the norm, with a relatively tiny faction of people settling on ActivityPub instead, despite it being a poor match for the kinds of things that people used RSS for.

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to-do list

Here are the things I need to take care of within the next week:

  • Schedule a sleep study
  • File my quarterly business taxes
  • Edit background video for Saturday talk
  • Set up projection mapping for Sunday show
  • Start working on specification for game dynamic soundtrack engine
  • Take care of the major clutter piles in the office
  • Empty out the car at the nearest Goodwill
  • Take the car to the mechanic for servicing

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Finally fixed login

Login on this site has been a bit flaky for a while since in my never-ending fight against AI bots I had switched to a multiprocess configuration to give the site a bit more robustness, but which had the side effect of most logins only having a 50% chance of working due to fiddly details inside Publ (or, more precisely, Authl, which defaults to only being safe for single-process configurations).

So, Publ finally implements multiprocess-safe token storage, which is something I’d been meaning to add since approximately forever ago (although it seems I never opened an actual issue to track it, oops), and this should make user login reliable again.

Thanks to Spud who finally lit a fire under my butt to fix this annoying issue.

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2025 🔜 2026

And now it’s time for my traditional annual wrap-up post, and my hopes for next year.

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The state of the fluffy (late December 2025 edition)

Time for another proverbial cheese sandwich post1. Thinking about the end of the year and what’s coming up for me.

This isn’t my annual aspiration wrap-up post; that’ll come later.

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Ten Commandments

  1. Thou shalt prioritize belief in that which can be demonstrated empirically
  2. Thou shalt not worship anyone, regardless of their social influence
  3. Thou shalt strive to improve the situation for everyone, including yourself
  4. Thou shalt allow yourself rest and hydration
  5. Thou shalt leave yourself open to possibilities
  6. Thou shalt not bring direct harm to others, and choose options which minimize indirect harm
  7. Thou shalt respect the consent of others
  8. Thou shalt not intentionally mislead
  9. Thou shalt not treat the success of others as thine own failure
  10. Thou shalt question everything, including these commandments

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Vehicle updates

The ebike has been working great!

But it’s gotten super rainy, and it’s not always great to ride in this weather.

Also having an empty carport has turned my house into a theft target, and I’ve been locked in a battle with a dude who is absolutely determined to steal the bike at this point.

One of my ideals had been to go with an older shitbox car with a stick shift, and I happened to be checking Craigslist on my monthly search for a stickshift shitbox, and came across a 2008 Corolla which seemed to be in good shape, and which is basically the same innards and platform as the 2006 Matrix I loved so much.

Earlier today the seller was free and so we met up and I gave it a test drive, and I ended up buying it, somewhat impulsively but, hey, it wouldn’t be the worst car purchase decision I’ve made in the last few years…

Just as I thought, a stickshift is a lot more fun to drive, and doesn’t fill me with as much anxiety as a car that tries to do everything for me and makes me feel like I’m not in control. It’s a super basic car by today’s standards; no blind-spot monitoring, no automatic headlights, no backup camera. Heck, it still has its factory stereo which only has a 6-CD changer and no aux input. (The seller threw in his Bluetooth-to-FM converter thing.) There’s also a bunch of little things that need to be sorted out (I’ll probably be taking it to my neighborhood mechanic tomorrow to see what work they recommend). It’s also beige (which looks surprisingly nice compared to today’s bland sea of black/white/grey boringness) and the paint is peeling and it’s been in a few fender benders. It’s not much of a looker, and it doesn’t really need to be.

I ended up ordering a CarPlay head unit since I do want in-dash navigation and better music integration and such, and also since the car only came with a single key and no door remote I ordered some remotes (which are apparently very easy to program yourself) and found a local locksmith who will duplicate and program the key for not too much.

Anyway. I still wish I hadn’t gotten rid of the Mazda3 when I did, but overall this feels like the right spot for me: a car that I don’t feel guilty about not-driving, and which doesn’t make me so anxious to drive.