Vyvanse, day 1
Today was my first day trialing Vyvanse, just a single 10mg dose in the morning. I took it at around 9 AM, and felt it kick in at around 10. It gave me a slight headache, and a slight vague spacy feeling, with maybe a bit of… something that I’m having trouble describing. Almost like my spine was being squeezed from the inside? I don’t know.
My blood pressure and heart rate did rise up a little, but not to concerning levels; my rest pulse is usually 50-60 and my BP is usually 120/80, and on Vyvanse it peaked at around 75 and 135/85, respectively. Nothing terribly concerning, and not so much that I could feel it myself.
I don’t feel like I’m specifically more focused than usual, although my headspace is at least a bit less cluttered. And I’m definitely more alert than usual. It’s not quite how I felt on the two good days of Adderall, but it’s also not like, say, Concerta or Strattera which had me feeling frustrated and, well, colicky, for lack of a better term.1
Anyway. It was good to try this experiment on a day right before a weekend, since that means it won’t mess up the rest of my week if something went wrong, and also this was on a day I wasn’t expecting to be very productive anyway, what with the everything. I’ll be skipping it over the weekend but now I’m feeling a lot more optimistic about resuming it on Monday.
A message from a Ukranian
A large chunk of the company I work for is Ukraine-based. Today, one of my coworkers (who lives in the US, but still has family back in Ukraine) posted this message, which I am sharing with his permission (he asked not to be named, for the safety of himself and his family):
Please read this carefully. This is a most realistic analysis from me since I’m thinking about it for last 40 hours non stop.
The World has changed. This is the biggest act of aggression since the WW II.
Guys I wanted to emphasize this again. US media might not represent it well, but Putin’s idea is to take down the whole Ukraine, because he can’t stand the idea that some of what he thinks satellites has chosen the democracy… After he taken down Ukraine, he will heal his wounds… And since he has nothing to lose he will take over Eastern Europe and maybe claim Alaska as a “historical” russian land. He has no moral identity — they are shelling our schools, hospitals, blood donation centers, kindergardens.
More than that China is watching this brutal act of aggression and making some conclusions of the Western world weakness.
And trust me if Ukraine falls — here in the US, everything will be very bad. It’s not even about our business it’s all about global economy and possible global militarization. Next elections will win Trump — guaranteed with the help of russian funding if they succeed today. So the only way to save our World as is and DEMOCRACY — right now is to help Ukrainian military. They are fighting versus second world larges army and winning.
WHAT CAN WE DO NOW?
The only weakness point is lack of airdefence systems since russia is attacking from everywhere — from the Black sea, from it’s border, from Belarussia and pre-Dniester Moldavian republic. We have to ask NATO to shield the airspace over Ukraine. Trust me the rest of russian troops will be taken care by Ukrainian army.
SO we have to attend rallies, to ask US government (your congresmen) to block Russia from SWIFT system and to close the airspace over Ukraine and start lend lease with tanks and stuff.
Please donate to Ukrainian army - they are the last frontier of the democratic world as is. This the truth. Spread the word about this, please. US folks should now what at stakes.
For those who would like to contribute financially, there is information from the National Bank of Ukraine and a charitable fund based in Ukraine, which you can specify as going to the Ukranian Army or to a general fund.
Happy Twosday, Part Two
Now the real celebration can happen, as we put Twosday to bed.
See you in 198 years.
Happy Twosday!
It is 2:22:22 on 2/22/2022, which happens to also be a Twosday.
This is not the only Twosday which will ever happen on the Gregorian calendar; 2/22/2220 is also on a Twosday. If anyone else is still around in 198 years, they can also have a celebration of numerical assonance.
2/22/2222 is, unfortunately, on a Friday. Pope Gregory XIII clearly failed to think ahead.
Anyway, the real celebration will be in 20 hours, when it’s 22:22:22.
More thoughts on drawing programs
I really want to make comics again. But none of the drawing programs I’ve tried have been suitable. They’re all overcomplex in ways that don’t help with the drawing process, or buggy, or have enormously troublesome user interface issues.
I used to use Photoshop but it’s gotten unwieldy, slow, and expensive. There were many really nice things in it which most drawing programs fall incredibly flat on.
Armodafinil followup
Just a followup, I ended up staying awake for over 25 hours, finally fell asleep for a bit today at 10, woke up again at 11, and mostly I’m feeling like I have a gigantic hangover.
Apparently armodafinil’s mechanism of action is identical to cocaine’s, so it actually IS stimulant-based and not just “a wakefulness agent” and I wish i’d known that before embarking on this. I don’t know why my research failed me this badly this time. Probably me being desperate for something that works.
I’m definitely not interested in continuing with armodafinil, in any case. Advice for dealing with this massive pounding headache would be appreciated.
sleepless from armodafinil
i feel like crap and i;m wide awake and i want to sleep but i can;t sleep
i;ve been having electric pains through my nerves all night and i feel like i drank three pots of coffee and i am not sleepy at all but i am very very tired
on the plus side i’m having no apnea symptoms tonight but that’s because i’m not getting into a state of relaxation which allows it to occur in the first place
why is my body so awful at processing medications
An immediate addendum
So, I was willing to give Sahil the benefit of the doubt; I thought he might have simply been NFT-curious or keeping his options open. But that’s just because I wasn’t looking.
An open letter to Sahil Lavingia re: NFTs
I am against NFTs.
I am an investor in Gumroad, not because I expect my shares to ever be worth anything but because I love Gumroad’s mission. It’s probably the best place online for independent creators to sell both digital and physical goods. Every now and then I look to see what other merch-fulfillment options exist out there, and none of them are nearly as fair to creators as Gumroad. The next-best one is Etsy, which charges monthly per-item listing fees and is part of a bigger problem with long-tail economics in this day and age. I do not have an Etsy store, or any plans to open one. (Most of my physical merch I sell on Storenvy just because I’ve been too lazy to migrate it over to Gumroad. Storenvy is pretty awful too, although for different reasons than Etsy.)
Charting my armodafinil response
Just to keep track of stuff here for onlookers
| Time | Systolic | Diastolic | HR | Notes |
|---|---|---|---|---|
| 9:11 | 120 | 76 | 59 | Just took dose |
| 9:13 | 119 | 78 | 59 | Validation check |
| 10:01 | 136 | 90 | 52 | Felt it starting to kick in |
| 10:02 | 132 | 86 | 51 | |
| 10:20 | 130 | 93 | 52 | Feeling a bit bad |
| 10:38 | 142 | 99 | 55 | Feeling quite bad |
| 10:46 | 147 | 102 | 54 | hi |
| 10:50 | 136 | 67 | 64 | the ratio |
| 10:59 | 140 | 100 | 54 | am i going to die? |
| 11:17 | 148 | 87 | 50 | yeah probably |
| 11:21 | 151 | 91 | 54 | if i hit 160 I’m going to the hospital |
| 11:30 | 156 | 95 | 55 | really shouldn’t have taken this on an empty stomach, huh |
| 11:38 | 158 | 96 | 55 | but hey at least I’m very much awake |
| 11:56 | 171 | 109 | 61 | 911 is being called right now |
| 12:15 | 170 | 87 | 68 | EMTs don’t seem to be very worried |
| 12:17 | 152 | 89 | 60 | Called doctor, seems the EMTs were right |
| 12:20 | 156 | 96 | 65 | |
| 12:26 | 144 | 86 | 60 | Out of the woods? I’m feeling better but just shaken |
| 12:57 | 142 | 89 | 57 | Still feeling really shaky but at least I’m pretty sure I’m not gonna die today |
| 14:36 | 145 | 94 | 56 | feeling like garbage but I also still haven’t eaten which might have something to do with it |
| 16:56 | 147 | 91 | 62 | still feeling shitty but at least I’m stable, hopefullY I sleep really good tonight |
| 18:56 | 139 | 86 | 62 | |
| 23:46 | 137 | 01 | 59 | bedtime |
Armodafinil, day 1
A few weeks ago I learned about armodafinil as an alternate non-stimulant ADHD treatment; this seemed pretty compelling to me because stimulant-based meds have always been troublesome for me for various reasons.
Unfortunately, it’s only off-label for ADHD; fortunately it’s on-label for a bunch of other conditions I have, and the theory of it working for ADHD is that it treats underlying sleep conditions that make ADHD worse, rather than treating the ADHD itself.
My comment on COLC-2021-0009-0001
There is an open call for commentary on some pendidng legislation. Here is what I submitted:
As an independent musician, I often run into many problems with automated copyright enforcement online. Quite often I’ll upload a music video to YouTube containing only my own original work, but then I get a copyright strike because the drum beat or some incidental noise happened to match something on a major label track. The recourse for this is to appeal the copyright strike, and YouTube almost always finds in favor of the record label, as they have huge amounts of money and I do not.
Similar issues are faced by individual photographers who take photographs of well-known landmarks, being issued takedown notices because their photograph happened to closely match a similar photo owned by Getty Images or the like. For that matter, Getty Images often assumes they own photos that independent journalists put on their articles, when those photographs were taken specifically for the article.
There are also many content creators who create videos which include thorough academic analyses of copyrighted work, completely within the bounds of fair use, but algorithmic copyright detection filters do not understand any nuance when it comes to the difference between analysis and outright copying. In one particularly ironic case, Adam Neely made a video in defense of Warner Media regarding a copyright dispute over a song, and then Warner Media flagged that video – for the part of it which wasn’t even owned by Warner!
The copyright system is also often abused to prevent discussion of important issues, and copyright reporting mechanisms are often used as an end-run around anti-SLAPP measures.
Algorithmic copyright matching needs to come with extreme human oversight. While an algorithmic match can and should be used to inform people about potential infringement, it should never be used as an automated means of preventing access to a work, legal or otherwise.
If you care at all about the garbage clusterfuck that is the US copyright system, please share your comments in advance of the public consultation by February 8, 2022.
⭐️ Egypt Urnash: On edits
Fully-introduced to the Leaf now
When my Leaf arrived, the front camera wasn’t working, meaning the self-driving functionality was nonfunctional. Today I took it to the nearest Nissan dealership to get it looked at, and fortunately it was just that the camera had gotten disconnected somehow. 5 hours and $280 later (most of which will be reimbursed by Carvana) I have a car with level 2 self driving.
And holy moly, level 2 self-driving is weird, in a good way. It can’t handle all driving even in its limited situation (nor should it) but it does an amazing job of maintaining speed and safe following distance and position within the lane. And it always errs on the side of caution; if it doesn’t have a clear view of the lane markers, it turns off (and lets you know!), and goes into lane-keep alert mode instead.
There’s a bunch of road on the way home which has had construction going on for as long as I’ve lived here, and the lanes are all weird. When driving there, the lane-keep alert made sure I was aware I was drifting between lanes, but used a perfect level of tactile notification, which made perfect sense. And when lane keeping became available again, it was so surreal (but cool) to feel the steering wheel automatically turn for me.
It’s a really cool experience, and I feel like it’s implemented in a safe way that’s not likely to have the Tesla problem of just like, you know, randomly swerving into trucks/medians/oncoming traffic.
It handles all of the parts of driving that make me anxious.
Also having the full wraparound camera makes parking much easier.
So anyway. Yeah. I like it.