Rambles that are fluffy, by fluffy
So, on the plus side, Adderall XR has been helping me quite a lot with my focus and executive functioning.
On the minus side, I’m having several of the unpleasant side effects: greatly increased blood pressure, numb toes, migraines/nausea (starting yesterday or so), and constipation.
I was really hoping I finally found something that works for me. Maybe I should stop taking it for a couple days and see how I feel. Because right now I just feel bad.
This was the day of finishing. It… isn’t quite finished. (Is anything, really?)
But what’s left to do can wait.
Back in 2015, I was a complete mess, and I did everything I could to hide it. I was still having panic attacks regularly, and they would be brought on by the slightest provocation. But I felt, working in tech, that I had to be quiet about it, and just let things pass and things would get better if I ignored them.
One day a coworker did a thing that triggered a pretty big panic attack. It wasn’t anything malicious on his part, just a cavalier, morbid joke in gestural form that happened to tread upon one of my biggest triggers.
I felt awful, and I wanted to keep from feeling that way again.
So I messaged him on our work chat, and told him that the gesture he made happens to be a huge trigger for me and I was having a pretty major panic attack as a result. And his response was incredibly helpful: he didn’t realize, he understood, and he wouldn’t do it again. And he stuck to that.
I’ve been on Adderall XR for a bit over a week now. It’s going pretty okay, except for the stuff that isn’t.
Today saw the electrical work happen. It went well.
Was this the last day?! Well, no, but I finally have a functional kitchen again!
Countertops are in! Yay!
Bet y'all are happy that soon the big payoff will be posted! I sure am happy that there’ll be a big payoff to post soon, personally.
Not a lot to show today, but it’s coming really close to completion!
This li'l old man is 17 18 now.
