Rambles that are fluffy, by fluffy
I have accepted a job at maven.io as a full-stack engineer. I’ll be working on web publishing stuff as an actual source of income now!
I am very optimistic about this. Everyone at the interview was super-awesome and friendly, and their ethics seem pretty much aligned with mine. I hope to be part of making curated published content on the web better for everyone! (Readers and publishers alike.)
So, on the plus side, Adderall XR has been helping me quite a lot with my focus and executive functioning.
On the minus side, I’m having several of the unpleasant side effects: greatly increased blood pressure, numb toes, migraines/nausea (starting yesterday or so), and constipation.
I was really hoping I finally found something that works for me. Maybe I should stop taking it for a couple days and see how I feel. Because right now I just feel bad.
This was the day of finishing. It… isn’t quite finished. (Is anything, really?)
But what’s left to do can wait.
Back in 2015, I was a complete mess, and I did everything I could to hide it. I was still having panic attacks regularly, and they would be brought on by the slightest provocation. But I felt, working in tech, that I had to be quiet about it, and just let things pass and things would get better if I ignored them.
One day a coworker did a thing that triggered a pretty big panic attack. It wasn’t anything malicious on his part, just a cavalier, morbid joke in gestural form that happened to tread upon one of my biggest triggers.
I felt awful, and I wanted to keep from feeling that way again.
So I messaged him on our work chat, and told him that the gesture he made happens to be a huge trigger for me and I was having a pretty major panic attack as a result. And his response was incredibly helpful: he didn’t realize, he understood, and he wouldn’t do it again. And he stuck to that.
I’ve been on Adderall XR for a bit over a week now. It’s going pretty okay, except for the stuff that isn’t.
Today saw the electrical work happen. It went well.
Was this the last day?! Well, no, but I finally have a functional kitchen again!
Countertops are in! Yay!
Bet y'all are happy that soon the big payoff will be posted! I sure am happy that there’ll be a big payoff to post soon, personally.
Not a lot to show today, but it’s coming really close to completion!
